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2007-11-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

okay, so i lied. i'm still not done with the new blog yet. sorry! i'm addicted to veronica mars now. the only reason i'm updating now is because i'm waiting for vmars to load. i finished watching the first season in two days! all 22 episodes in two days! i lovelovelove veronica. seriously, i love her sarcasm and witty-ness and everything. kristen bell is my new hero.

enough about vmars. enough about everything else really. i'm starting on season 2 now!

summary of post: new blog will have to take a while.

2007-11-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

it's been almost a month since my last post! HAHA. am i amazing or what?
okay, i may not have any excuses for not updating, other than just plain procrastination, but i am working on my new blog to make up for it! i've been on it for the last 3 hours or so, and i'm almost going mad now. really. i am currently stuck with all the html codings and all and i'm very very confused. OHDEAR.
but i will take a short break now to eat! after that i will start on my new blog again and i will try to finish it all by today! (keyword here is 'try', not 'will'.)

onto some other news, my family is growing again! i'm going to have a new nephew by, most likely, the end of today! :D my cousin is already in the labour ward! wooooo!
it's fun being an aunt!

2007-10-27T00:22:00.000+08:00

SKINNY TOM WITH GREEN SPECS! ♥

I KNOW, i know. i still haven't uploaded pictures and i haven't bothered updating this old blog. SORRY LAH. the internet is too much of a distraction for me. yes, even with o levels coming up.
and! i will post the pictures and upload it somewhere soooon! because i need to find a new site to host my photos AND i'm going to change my url and layout and everything! ARE YOU EXCITED FOR ME? you are! everything after o's though. so now i'm posting animations to make up for the pictures! you can steal them if you want! i didn't spend THAT much time doing them anyway.

dimpleeeee!

2007-10-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

HELLO THERE PEOPLE!
i know it's about time i posted the pictures from the day we sent lifen off, but! i haven't even completed uploading all the photos on flickr when they said i've passed the 200 picture limit! howhowhow?
maybe i shall just continue uploading them on flickr so that my old photos will be 'hidden'. i don't know, this is confusing. what to do?
i shall think of something later.

anyway! it's hari raya tomorrow and i'm excited! because i've been cleaning up my room, which is still in a mess, but i can actually see the floor now! wooo! :D and all the hari raya songs on the radio are getting me into the festive mood! yay yay yay! the only thing i'm not looking forward too is wearing stuffy costumes, heels (yes! with the condition of my leg!) and going to houses of people i barely even know. oh dear. but it's okay! because there'll always be nice food and everything! and my mother is already cooking the lontong! :D

okay, i shall try to think of what to do with my flickr account now.

2007-10-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

mm, don't you just love thouse colourful lights people put up during hari raya? i know i do. my father made ours last year and he's been so proud of it because he had to buy the correct bulbs and colours and fix the wires and everything. those blinking lights make me happy. and so does jacques.(:

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i haven't been on here in awhile now, have i? exams are here and i'm doing what i do best - procrastinating like there's no tomorrow. no, wait, that doesn't make sense. procrastinating because there'll always be a tomorrow? procrastinating because i can do things tomorrow? okay, i will learn to shut up.

i can't wait till the exams are over and then i'll have some KA-CHING! because hari raya is coming! (i'm a poet and i don't know it.) then i'll have the bext time in the world AFTER the mt o levels going out and having fun and everything. ahhh!
or maybe i'll just be stuck here on myspace or facebook. because they're the most addictive things on the planet really. :D i am such a slob. i know.

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i like listening to mcfly performances on my mp3 at full blast - damaging my hearing at the same time - and imagining that they're in singapore playing a private concert for me and all my bestest best friends and.. well, need i say more? it'll be the best thing in the whole wide world.

2007-09-02T03:17:00.000+08:00

I HAD A REALLY REALLY REALLY GREAT TIME TODAY, I AM NOT KIDDING. well, of course, minus the fact that sureesha had to go off and i don't want her to ever go off because i want her to stay here forever and ever and ever. but it's okay! because i shall save up my money to visit her in canada! if i can save up for jacques, there's no reason why i can't do the same for canada/sureesha! but it'll take quite some time now since i spent about 50$ on her presents. (: it actually feels good because i know that i'm spending the money to buy gifts for her and i'm not forced to spend the money and it feels really good! so, yes, i shall save up and we will all go to canada together and lifen will open her fishball noodle shop there and so will reshma for her donut shop! :D

so, yes, today! we sent sureesha off at the airport! very very sad. a lot of hugs and goodbyes and waves were exchanged today.):
but then the tears were wiped away and we proceeded to popeye's to eat. (: the best fast food chain in the world. well, no, maybe only in singapore.

i kepo-ed down to 3/8's class outing today and it felt very awkward because i was the only outsider but i ate some of the steamboat thingy anyway! i wouldn't have gone there if there were more people really, but since not many people turned up, i decided to follow ann, lifen, reshma and syara anyway. besides, i never know which train to take to get back home. but it was okay anyway, although still quite awkward and i was very clumsy today and made my cup fall over twice. but yes, any 3/8 people out there if you think i'm very annoying and disrupting your class outing thing, sorry yahhh? :D

anyway! pictures from today. once again, all in flickr but taking some out from there to post here.

i love our big huge giant card!

reshma and lifen were holding on to the card all the time while we were finding sureesha.

and then we met sureesha and gave her the presents!

she hugged everyone of us! reshma isn't scared of her anymore!

group photo! i look disgusting.

she was thinking really hard about.. uhh.. ?

:D:D very happy!

her family was there too!

and then she had to go in and we could only talk through sign language. ):

she went in waved our last goodbyes. )):

:O (sudden change in mood, i know.)

lifen bullying reshma with her new-found martial arts skills!

(:

the best thing about this picture is the old lady in the background who sloowwllyyy leaned towards her left while i was taking this so that she wouldn't be seen.

um, hello, the camera is.. here...

spot the odd one out.

reshma was bullying me! proof is in the reflection!

the whole idea was to have all the five of us in a picture. me and reshma are in(/on?) the reflection!

mr fantastic.

loner.

i think i've posted more than enough pictures here already. if your server is slow, then too bad, screw you, my shitty computer rocks more than you. woohoo.

2007-08-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

that's how bad my bed looks like now. (the picture is dark because i didn't bother changing the setting of my camera.) yes, like the bedsheets aren't bad enough, i have to open my door everyday to this. books and worksheets and bags and clothes all thrown onto my bed. i've been sleeping on the floor for a few days now.
of course i know it's all my fault. i'm to lazy to do anything about it. i procrastinate too much. yea baby.

yesterday was amazing! sureesha went to school and met everyone and hugged everyone and chatted with everyone and it's very nice to see that! it was funny how before sureesha came, laavanya (the self-proclaimed bitch/dignified stripper) was so anxious and kept asking me every 5 minutes whether she was reaching already but when she did came, THE bitch just sat there and stoned. HAHA.
then we made our way to school (and met a weird guy on the way, but i'd rather not talk about it, yes?) and met quite a number of people and avoided quite a number as well. reshma was still scared of her, i can tell.
the journey to the mrt station was quite fun too, because we talked and stuff like that? we're going to (hopefully) hang out tomorrow! woooooooo.

i want sureesha to stay longer/forever here. pleeeeeeeeeees?

2007-08-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

oh my goshhhhhhhhhh.

"IT WAS ME!" :D

YES I AM RELIEVING (sp?) THE MCFLY DAYS NOWADAYS AND TALKING ABOUT THEIR VIDEOS TO KHAI & SU IN MT CLASS (and get weird looks) AND I LOVE IT AND IT'S VERY NICE TO WATCH THE SAME THINGS THAT MADE YOU LAUGH TWO YEARS AGO. mcfly is awesome.

:D

2007-08-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

i've uploaded today's pictures on flickr! clickity click.
well, not ALL the pictures are on there. two are missing because i've exceeded my bandwidth for this month since all the pictures are too huge. (yes, after clicking the thumbnail, you can see that little "all sizes" icon at the top to get a bigger picture.) but i'll upload them on imageshack and put them on here anyway! because they're worth showing to the world, i guess.
and i'm gonna post some pictures from today also! all from flickr, yes, but not every single one. just the ones worth showing. :D

finally! a nice photo of reshma!

HAHA. go ruzzie! cover lifen's face!

what i like about this is that suhaidah wasn't posing.

awh! how sweet!

LOL@RESHMA!

wha..?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

reshma is amazing!

the best thing about this picture is the background. reshma being bullied as usual. well foreground also..

:o :D!!

and that's it!

2007-08-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

hello there people! :D
we skipped hml and finally met up with sureesha today and it was amazing and fun and i enjoyed myself and i've never been happier in one day after a long long time! and we did something we only do in probably about a few thousand years - WE TOOK NEOPRINTS! relieving those sec1 days are well fun. :D
okay, i will not waste my time any longer typing out things people won't read so i'll post pictures instead!
(yes, all taken with my baby jacques. ^.^)

we were waiting for sureesha! :D (KHAI'S FACE!)

and reshma was getting very nervous because she's seriously scared of sureesha.

and she came!

and gave us all a hug but i didn't get to get everything because i was too excited!

and so we started talking.

and talking.

they were retards. as always.

lifen scolded reshma. nothing new.

walked around..

HAHA! i love this a LOT.

reshma abdullah ilovemychendi!

i know it's blur. dangggg.

khai&reshma were holding hands! awh!

um, yeah.

we had to take this sneakily but was caught in the end by the shop-person. you can just see her hand at the right there trying to cover my camera from taking this. HAH.

and the neoprints!
(i've put them behind a link because their sizes are too weird and all and i can't stand having them being messy all around my blog.. yanno?)
x x x x x
the last one is my favourite. for obvious reasons.

2007-07-29T01:55:00.000+08:00

i've been very very amazed with colourful lights lately. ...

yesterday was nice, although absolutely exhausting. i went to vivo immediately after school to watch the simpsons movie with my parents! :D it was funny!
we took pictures of anything and everything before the movie started, which was a longggg time since we decided to watch the midnight movie. my father might have fallen in love with the camera too, oh dear. but then again, WHAT IS THERE NOT TO LOVE ABOUT JACQUES, RIGHT? jacques is amazing. :D

and when we got home, i had the best, longest, most peaceful sleep ever in a long longggggg time. ahhhhhhh, heaven.

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i am planning to change my url soon! which is a huge thing okay! i've had this url for over 3 years now (which really explains the current url.) and i'm officially sick of it, so i'm changing! of course, i need to make a layout first. or maybe just find one since i'm getting very very rusty in anything related to image editting and such. and then i want to transfer every post from this url to the new one for memories sake. (i started trasferring just now and read through some old posts and i became really nostalgic. but it was nice. thank god i didn't tYp LiKe tHiS or anything similar to that.)

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i feel really pathetic and insecure nowadays. screw the world! again!

2007-07-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

i swear, i really do, that my parents are trying to spoil me like CRAZY. like today, for example. :D
so today i had nothing to do without a cca so i went home early and my parents decided to go out and they went to sim lim and i brought my babbbbyyyyy along with me. ((: yay! it was jacques first journey out into the world and he went on a train and everything hung around my neck. :D HAHA. that sounds so weird, but nvm!
and then we went to a shop and they suddenly decided to buy me a 75-300mm lens! usm somemoreee. :O and it was like 350$. and then they bought another wideangle cum macro lens, which i'm in love with, which is about 80$! and then that (really beng) salesman threw in a filter together, and i bought another pathetic lens pen, and my parents paid for everything! :O :O they have never EVER been so kind to me, yanno. must be the fact that my brother is earning his own money now so they've got enough money to spend on me. :D:D I LOVE BEING SPOILT. although i feel really guilty sometimes, because they really want me to get good grades and i really don't think i can do that. screwwwwwww.
now people, if you see me actually listening and paying attention in class, it's not all that weird anymore. i'm trying but i'm still dumb enough to fail every single test i take. OH WELL.

i love how my new macro and wide-angle lens makes it look like a i have a fisheye, which costs a bomb.:D

today, in pictures.

my father took that picture while i was busy buying ice cream with my mother. :D

went to bugis junction where my mother browsed for a new phone.

then i got bored and went to the neoprint shop nearby and took a horrible picture of myself.

i kept jacques after that because there wasn't anything much to take.

:D

semb pri's carnival is tomorrow! i'm going to take more pictures and have more fun!

2007-07-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

i officially hate delilah for being the luckiest girl alive. whoever she is.
and have i mentioned i love that song by plain white t's? no? well i'm in love with it so there. screw you delilah. (i know plain white t's is very, er, xXxXemo0o0o0oxXxXx. shut up. i only love that song.)

yes, this post is short and redundant but it's okay!

sureesha is in singapore! but she's going off to thailand tomorrow and she's coming back again on the 4th! and then to malaysia on the 11th then back in singapore again on the 13th! :D
looks like she'll be able to celebrate national day. :O :/

2007-07-15T14:19:00.000+08:00

YAY. i love how the two above pictures turned out! :D
my parents have been spoiling me a LOT by buying me things for the camera. or maybe they're spoiling jacques, i don't know. either way, i love them a lot a lot a lot because they've spent so much on me and they're expecting good results in return and i have no idea whether i can do it.
they bought me a strap, thankfully a canon eos one, not some other weird brand names, and i know it costs about 30$ so i'm happy.(: and two days ago they bought me a camera bag, which most definitely costs over 50$, and a tripod! which should cost a lot! and i didn't even ask for it! i was planning to save for it my own! :D:D
and, of course, not to mention my father paid over 200$ for my camera because i hadn't saved money for a 400d, and the gst increase made the price even worse, so i'm happy happy happy because, again, i didn't ask for it and i told my parents that if it costs too much i'll be fine with a 350d but they insisted on me getting a 400d because it's better and i can learn more with it! :D:D:D
they're best parents ever, i swear.
so yesterday i had nothingto do so i played around with the tripod and the shutter speed and took the light from my phone and did those pictures above! i can't wait till hari raya now,with all the sparklers and all.
(of course, you're not supposed to look at how pink my room is, how there's a blue teddy bear at the right side of the picture, how i look totally obese even though i'm blurred, how disorganised i am, how i haven't bothered to keep the handbag from last year's hari raya and it's still lying there on that table thing.)
the first one is supposed to be of my signature, but it's flipped because i can't possibly sign my name backwards. i wrote my name out backwards though, on the second picture, which is why it looks really disgusting.
do note that i was writing in the air so yah. it ws fun though.:D

i love jacques a LOT.

sureesha might be back (again) on the 17th! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2007-07-08T19:15:00.000+08:00

first image is highly edited, i'm sure you can tell.
and i know you can tell i've been playing around with jacques a LOT. :D i need to take him out, but i haven't bought a proper bag yet. tsk. and the shop i bought it from is stupidstupidstupid. there wasn't a strap and when we asked for it, there was only a nikon strap available. hurrr. what's the use of being so proud of having a canon and bringing it everywhere when your camera strap just screams NIKON? damn. i need to get a strap nowwww.

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i am bored and i have nothing else to update about. i need to do my homework. i am not looking forward to school tomorrow at all. i am sleepy sleepy sleepy. please somebody go out with me for once over the weekend. wherever. i need a life.

2007-07-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

"I hope that you are a disaster. I'm sorry, but I do. I hope that you are thunder and lightning. I hope you are a forest fire, I hope you kill the dead wood and burn off the rotting leaves. With the canopy gone, the sun can get in. You need new growth. I hope you're terrible and broken and perfect."
-Joey Comeau

i find that quote really really beautiful. i feel refreshed just by reading it. (: i shall bookmark the site i got it from.

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i crawled my way out of malay oral o levels today (figuratively speaking, of course) and, surprise surprise, i did so so so bad, i don't even want to talk about it. but then again, i don't actually feel bothered or motivated to do well anyway because my brother is the ullllltimate example student. e8 baby, i should beat him by getting an f9. hah.
i'm kidding of course. about getting the f9. i'm still not motivated.

i've been playing around with jacques for forever. and i get to hanggggg with sureesha this weekend! i'll bring jacques along! YAY. i can't wait to get this whole week done and over with. :D

2007-07-02T12:49:00.000+08:00

okay! strike the last post. I BOUGHT MY DEAR JACQUES, A CANON, AND I'M IN LOVE WITH IT AND I'VE BEEN PLAYING AROUND WITH IT ALL DAY LONG.
although my father still insists i should've bought the lumix because he still thinks it's better and he's gonna buy it next week probably but i don't care because my dear jacques is with me now and i love it!

BUT! what i hate is the stupid rise in gst okay! stupid stupid gst, made me pay over 1300$ for my 400d. which is wayyyy over my budget. just my luck i bought it yesterday, jusy 1st, the first day of the increase in gst. SCREW GST. screw screw screw.

but whatevuhhhhhhh. my canon is with me now and i lovvvvvvvvve it. :D

SUREESHA IS ALREADY IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
YAY!

2007-06-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

canon or lumix? canon or lumix? canon or lumix? canon or lumix? canon or lumix? canon or lumix?

AHHHHHH. that stupid salesman shouldn't have recommended me any type of lumix or whatever else. and those two angmohs in the shop shouldn't have tried out a canon THEN a lumix and THEN ended up buying a lumix.
IF IT WASN'T FOR THEM I WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE AND HAPPY BUYING A CANON EOS 400D TODAY AND PLAYING WITH IT RIGHT NOW AND NOT THINK AND GET DEPRESSED AND EVERYTHING OVER WHETHER TO BUY A LUMIX OR A CANON.

because canon cameras are love and that lumix isn't a dslr anyway and i've always wanted a canon and lumix's iso sucks ass.
but lumix has ois and better lens (leica! :O) and it's much cheaper.
but! jacques will NEVER be jacques if it isn't a canon. if i end up with a lumix, i shall think up of another name which is much more unglamorous.

why am i not rich enough to buy both? STUPID SALESMEN. i need a camera nowwwwwwwwwwww. sureesha is coming back in three days!

but nvm! i shall not be too bothered about it and be happy because i'll get to play around with a camera tomorrow anyway during my duty (omgosh, i actually have a DUTY. haha, afrahs and duties never go together, but nvm! i'll be able to skip class duty and everything!) and ask around whether a canon or lumix is better and get advice and consider later and buy a camera and i'll live happily ever after.

save me now. please?

2007-06-23T03:10:00.000+08:00

omgosh! GUESS WHAT? i'm gonna go buy jacques in 7 days! (well, no, 6 days actually. since it's already 3.11 am now. ha. ha.) YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
but i think i'll end up with a 400d instead of a 350d like i planned to because it's much cheaper than i expected. :D:D:D:D:D I AM EXCITED.
we (parents + me) went around surveying the different prices for the cameras today. it was fun, definitely. i held a 400d today, it was amazing. ♥
I CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY. don't bother making plans with me after school that day. i'm going to rush home, get ready and go out of the house immmmmmmediately because of jacques! :D and then i'll get to play around with it the next day during the school carnival! and also when sureesha comes back two days later! WOOHOOOOOO. i am so excited. ARE YOU EXCITED FOR ME? you are, aren't you?

but please don't think i'll start spending again after i get jacques. i will start saving for lenses. and then i want to buy a polaroid camera (which is way cool and quite a steal but the film costs a bomb) and then a film camera, which is expensive since i don't have any clue how to develop pictures myself in the red room although it'll be super cool if i do. :O IMAGINE THAT!
and my father said he might (of course, might almost always means never) buy me a cheap laptop to store my pictures from my new camera/s in. !!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE TALKING ABOUT CAMERAS A LOT. jacques in 7 days jacques in 7 days jacques in 7 days. !!! :D:D:D !!! :D:D:D
JACQUES IN SEVEN FUCKING DAYS SUCKAAAAAAAAAS.
sorry, just HAD to say that. because, you know, i feel cooler now that i (almost) have jacques.

2007-06-15T19:06:00.000+08:00

omgosh! watch!

how amazing are they? I AM A FAN OF LACEY SCHWIMMER ALREADY. (minus the fact that i'm biased because she is, after all, benji's sister.) WHEN IS SYTYCD 3 GOING TO SHOW HEREEEEEEE????
the schwimmers have good genes, i tell you. lacey is hot! and so is benji. :DD

how adorable! ((:

the bear and benji show! (it loads super slowly though, but hell it's funny okay!)
The Bear and Benji Show

benji is love.

2007-06-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

NOTE THAT THIS ENTIRE POST IS GOING TO BE ON BENJI SCHWIMMER AND NOTHING BUT BENJI SCHWIMMER SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT THEN DON'T READ IT.

since lifen has been posting videos from sytycd of ivan, i shall post one with benji (and travis). because i'm a fan. (yes, the blake-ness has worn off.) :D

So You Think You Can Dance-Travis & Benji

benji has killer abs, i tell you. KILLER abs.
and! benji has myspace and i just added him and he has amazing pictures and he looks hot and everything AND he should come to singapore again.
benji schwimmer is love. love love LOVE. screw the fact that my computer is being all stupid and my right click isn't working which means i can't save pictures of benji and what not. (which i'm probably going to delete after i've gone out of this benji phase. i've cleared away my blake pictures already. ha. ha.)

:D

2007-06-08T15:03:00.000+08:00

hello world, i am updating. my computer has been REALLY cranky so don't rush me. yes, i am pissed off too. my father is planning to buy a new computer (i think) so hurray hurray. let's celebrate shall we. with fireworks and cheap balloons hung on the walls and ceilings to make everything seem more fun. let's pretend to have fun. hurray hurray.

holidays are boring. i can't go out much because my motherrrr needs me to help out with the chores. go clean your room, afrah. go mop the floor. go vacuum the house. go do the laundry. go wash the dishes. go everything. oh look, the guests are here. come on, do everything again.
i am sick of this house.

i feel scared now, i don't know why. i feel scared and nervous and everything. ksdnflskfn. i have no reason to be, have i? i am sick of this world. how i can never get what i want while everybody does. everybody has fun while i'm stuck at home doing nothing but chores.
why is life so miserable?

now you're regretting asking me to update here, don't you? i'm don't sound nice when i'm angry.

on the brighter side of life, i dreamt of rainbows a few days ago, it was amazing. it was the nicest rainbow ever. at the end of a rainbow, it'll reflect on another surface and then there'll be another rainbow. and at the end of that rainbow, there'll be another rainbow. and there were a whole lot of rainbows and i played around the rainbows with a group of people i've forgotten who they are and it was fun and everything.
i want this dream to come true.

2007-05-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

blog entry #150:

i hate you,
together with everybody else.
stfu.

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blake's in the finals! I WANT HIM TO WIN I WANT HIM TO WIN I WANT HIM TO WIN I DON'T CARE BECAUSE I LOVE HIM AND *insert some fanatic words here*.
i think i made my point.
results!
eng c5
amath e8
emath a1
chem c6
phy c6
pgeog c6
hollaaaaaaaaaaa.

fight club is a nice movie. you should watch it too if you love sick and twisted movies and/or chuck palahniuk. no, i did not watch it because of brad pitt.

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i'm writing a very brief entry because i don't see the point of writing long posts in here anymore. (i change my preferences very fast, i might be writing the 2000 word essay here instead of on a stupid piece of wai tee ass ass fooooolscap paper on science.) i still like lj better.

about $230 to jacques!

i am tired and hungry and totally useless.

2007-05-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

i have a new skin everybody! be happy/excited/proud/whatever for me will you. you won't get to see this everyday, you know.
i know, that thing on top is blur and disgusting and is of a very VERY low quality but that's only because i saved it in jpg form and forgot to change it to png form so bear with it for a bit. well, no. for a long time really. i don't change layouts as often.

i'm currently making friends with a 15 year old portuguese girl on flash-gear.com under the "letters" category there. (go try it.) how weird. but it's actually fun really. arranging letters to make words without punctuations or numbers. and the only emoticon you can use is XD. how fun, although quite tiring. hah.

it's 2.11am now! i haven't been up this late in a long long time and i love it! :D
i watched rain man and meet the robinsons online today. wanted to watch spiderman 3 as well, but my mother already got free tickets and my father just pangseh-ed her by watching it online today, so i'm gonna watch it with her next time! i'm still thinking of what else to watch. i already watched everything is illuminated (!!!!! :D :D !!!! :D :D !!!!) so that's out of the question. i can watch it again, but i already recorded it from the other day so i can watch it on tv instead of a crap qulity online so now i'm stil thinking of other movies. RECOMMEND ME A MOVIE NOW.

WHERE ARE YOU SUREESHA? I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU IN AGES AND YOU DON'T REPLY MY COMMENTS ON MYSPACE. i need to rant about my life to somebody who's actually willing to listen.

2007-05-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

i hate reading people's blogs now. because everybody seems so happy with everything while i'm stuck here in my own miserable little world. and songs remind me of people and things and times that i don't want to remember and it depresses me and i don't listen to songs as much as before and i don't have any favourite song or favourite band or favourite singer or favourite genre, and the songs constantly stuck in my head are songs which are mainstream and overplayed. like good charlotte and avril lavigne. i get angry when i listen to them and i have no idea why. songs by hinder remind me of sureesha and i hate it because i'll remember how farrr away she is. songs by mcfly/busted reminds me of my p5-sec1 days and i'll go all nostalgic and it's not a good feeling. and hiphop/r&b songs makes me pissed because they are annoying. i don't listen to my mp3 anymore and i don't have songs playing when i'm on the net anymore because i have no songs to listen to. what is wrong with me?

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tomorrow's the last exam paper! afterrr thaaaatttt, i can party like nobody's watching and go crazy and dance around in my room with loud techno music on and i won't care because exams are over and i can do anything i want or don't want as long as they're not related to school because school is stupid. woohoo!

I AM CONVINCED THAT JACQUES AND I ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER. because after spending a hundred bucks on my dear ____ (i still haven't found a name for my phone yet.) and getting all demoralised about not being able to get it before june to camwhore with sureesha when she comes back, i found out that the canon eos 350d is cheaper by a hundred bucks now and it's not 1199$ anymore but 1099$. and i saw two dslr buses in the interchange earlier today when i went home from school and i don't care if both of them are nikons because they're both DSLRs AND I WANT A DSLR.
jacques and i are fated to be together, i tell you, FATED.

i use a lot of and's and but's now and i don't use the fullstop as much as before.
goodbye.

2007-05-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

i am getting preeeeeeety tired of my boring layout, but my paint shop pro is gone and the site i got it from is not working anymore. dkfnlskdfnlsdfnl. i need my psp! screw it.

everything is illuminated is on hbo signature today! :D finally! and after begging my mother for 56461757 years, she has finally called those cable people to subscribe to the channel. :D:D OMG I AM FINALLY GOING TO WATCH EVERYTHING IS ILLUMINATED. I HAVE BEEN FINDING EVERYWHERE FOR IT. jonathan safran foer is love. :D

it's the middle of the exam period nowwwww. i have, hmmm, 4 papers left to go. hurrayyyyy... not! but whatever because there's 22 more days till the june holidays start! i have been counting down since the term started because i am desperate to get out of school and hang out with sureesha!:D

i am becoming a boring blogger because i don't do this as regularly as before. damn it, i hate exams.

i feel like going out and be rebellious and break the rules and everything. must be the effect of watching crazy/beautiful. have you ever watched that movie? i fell in love with kirsten dunst watching that show. because i envy people who do what they want without a care in the world and not caring about what others think.
i think i'm the only one who thinks this after watching that show. oh wells.

ps, i love blake lewis with dark hair and benji schwimmer is hot. and i want chris richardson back because he is loveee. :D

2007-04-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

THEY'RE SHOWING EVERYTHING IS ILLUMINATED ON HBO SIGNATURE. I AM GOING TO SUSCRIBE TO THAT CHANNEL WITH MY OWN MONEY JUST TO WATCH THAT SHOW, I DON'T CARE. I LOVE THE BOOK SO MUCH. AHHHHHHHHH. I WANNA WATCH EVERYTHING IS ILLUMINATED NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

jonathan safran foer is the best.

2007-04-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

MY COMPUTER IS FINALLY WORKING! yay yay yay yay YAY! but stupid stupid stupid because my things are all gone! grr. all 3gb+ of it. I AM DEPRESSED. well, no, not really. so anyway, HELLO INTERNET. I LOVE YOU INTERNET. :D

what has happened for the last 2 weeks since mr computer crashed:
-i lost my handphone virginity. :D message me your numbers if i haven't already got yours!
-i have the new smart tv! no more old black scv box.
-i have a new flat tv!
(all three above come in a package. if it wasn't for that starhub promotion, i wouldn't have gotten my dear w810i (which i'm planning to name. i'm still deciding whether it's male or female.) my parents aren't good to me, they're just desperate to get that flat tv and gave the extra phone to me.)
-i went to amk hub and fell in love with that place.
-i screwed up my first mye paper.
-i got too addicted to comics from the library.
-i got new pillows! finally my neck isn't aching any longer.
-my hatred for the school has worsened.
-my hatred for the people working in the school has worsened.
-i probably have lost all my myspace friends after not talking to them after so many weeks.
-hey hey you you! i think that avril lavigne song is ridiculously annoying.

.

i hate saturday afternoons.

2007-04-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

dear school,

MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING AND YOU SHOULD NOT LET US FORK OUT OVER 8OOOBUCKS JUST TO LET A GUY COME BACK TO SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU SHOULD NEVER EVER PUT A PRICE ON ANYBODY'S EDUCATION. EVER!

love, me.

2007-04-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

hello all. sorry for the lack of updates. i love lj more than blogger now. HAHHHHHHH.
i'm alone at home now. gr, i'm not used to it anymore. not that i'm scared, but i hate being independent. i hate washing the dishes and cleaning up after myself. yes, i am lazy. shut up.

my mother refuses to search for my bank book thing. it's frustrating. i want to check how much i have in the bank so that i can take out a few to buy jacques. i currently have about $320 left to go, and i want to get dear jacques before sureesha comes back so that we can camwhore alot alot alot before she goes back to canada and permanently stays there.): and i can't go get a job in june anymore, because i want to spend alot alot alot of time with sureesha. (:
ERGH. I HATE MONEY ISSUES.

it's april fools' day today. how amusing. i only got tricked once at like 1+am by sureesha, but i caught her like a second later, and nobody has tried to fool me since. this shows how limited my social life is. darn.

2.4 tomorrow. i'll probably cheat or something. because i hate the school. alot alot alot.

2007-03-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

I'M WATCHING THAT MR BEAN MOVIE LATER. FHGKDFGHLDKFNGLDFNGODIFGOINVKXCNVXCNVOI.
I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE CINEMA IN AGES.

i'm excited.

2007-03-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

BOO!

yes, finally, I HAVE UPLOADED ALLL MY PICTURES FROM MY CAMERA. they have been there for the longest time, and it took forever to get them uploaded. now i have a new default on myspace! i can add a few pictures into my blog! i can delete away all those all pictures which had been taking up a LOT of space! woohoo! thanks to my cousin of course. :D

i'm sorry because you may be tired of hearing this over and over again, but i am going to change my blogskin soon! i'll probably get started right after this update. i'm choosing a colour theme currently. don't know if i can complete the skin by today because i'm ridicullously exhausted and i'm sleepy and i don't feel too good. i'm leaning against the wall now while typing this right now.

anywayzzzzz, i have decided to name my future dslr jacques! (pronounced as zhak.. kinda. it's french.) i was being extra loserish yesterday and searched names for my boyfriend-to-be. HA-ha. and i fell in love with that name. $359 more to bringing jacques home! :D:D:D:D:D and then i can go everwhere with dear jacques and yay! i'm excited already!
i'm bringing this-and-thats to school tomorrow to sell and earn money to buy dear jacques. please buy! i'll love you forever, I SWEAR!

ps, ANNLIMXJ! leave your new blog link at my tagboard please. i lost your link and i accidentally closed the conversation window. because i suck like that. :D

/EDIT. changed layout, although it's almost the same as before. i only changed colours and placements of the divboxes. i'm too lazy to make graphics.

2007-03-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO THERE.
i think it's kinda a rule to post at least one entry during the holidays, huh? so this is it. although it's bloody short. BECAUSE I HVE TO GO OUT LIKE 2 HOURS AGO BUT I'M STILL HERE. because i've been doing that dumb heymath thing. OMGEE. PLEASE BE PROUD OF ME FOR DOING IT.

there's the sudoku competition thingy tomorrow MORNING. SUNDAY morning. WHY WAS I STUPID ENOUGH TO TAKE PART IN IT? i am beginning to question my sanity. gr.

i don't think i'll be updating much here because i redid my lj a few days ago and im posting ore there. :D TOO BD IF YOU DON'T HAVE AN ELJAY BECAUSE MY OURNAL IS FRIENDS ONLY. :D

i do realise that there are a whole lot of spelling mistakes here and there throughout this post. please don't mind me. i have a shit keyboard and i' rushing for time.

onto better greater news, I ONLY HAVE FOUR HUDRED AND SIX DOLLARS LEFT TO GET MYSELF THAT CANON EOS 350D. AHAHAHAHA. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D anybody willing to buy my unused tees? ALL BELO EIGHT BUCKS. HOWBOUTTHAT?

i think i have to stop writing n caps BUT I LOVE IT. IT'S ACTUALLLY FN AND IT FEELS LIKE I'M SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS WHEN I TYPE LIKE THIS. AHAHAHAHA. why do i feel so ecited?

shit.i hate writing brief entries like these, but I'M RUSHING FOR TIME. i hate that. i'm gonna miss me myspace very very muchly thi weekend plus the week after. i won't be able to go online much. ):

SCHOOL STRTS IN TWO DAYS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2007-03-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

I HATE THE SCHOOL. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE. HATE!
~~fuck~~ you waiiiteeee assssasssss.
>:( !

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no uniform day was aiiiight. could have been better though.

i think i have to stop being angry at everybody/the world.

2007-03-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

go shawty, it's MY BIRTHDAY
we gon' party like IT'S MY BIRTHDAY
we gon' sip bacardi like IT'S MY BIRTHDAY
And you know we don't give a fuck, IT'S NOT YOUR BIRTHDAY!

OMFGZzZzZ. i'm fifteen, goddammit. i feel fucking old. shittttt, and i have to run a few seconds faster for napfa. SCREW! i hate the moe.

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today was utterly boring. thank you, dear school, for getting us a goddamn POTATOSACK (melanie is getting very very famous for making this up. thank YOU for making up a word that suits him so uber perfectly. .. harr harr. i said uber. i am SOOOO cool.) that shouts nonstop even when a freaking microphone is right beside his vocal chord. SHUT UP ALREADY, FOR GOODNESS SAKES. we're not deaf.. unlike you. and the name's afrah. yes, WITH the r.
and i can't stand _ and _ and _. i'd rather be a loner, yes, than to have anything to do with the above mentioned.

WHY DO I FEEL SO PISSED TODAY?! i'm supposed to be happy and shit. but i am not. i hate the fifth of march two thousand and seven/twenty oh seven/whatevs. and it isn't pms. :O

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i have made a point to finish up my holiday homework EVEN BEFORE THE HOLIDAY STARTS. i shall do it when alllllll of youuuuuuuuu are gone to malaysia having the timeeee of your liivveesss. yes you will. i have heard enough. "omg i am so excited" "omg i can't wait" "omg have you packed yet" "omg omg OMFGGGGGGG" stfu. i know i'm being petty for not going and all, and it's not my fucking fault, OKAY? so stop saying it is. i've had fights with my parents over this fucking matter and i am fucking sick of it. so shut up.
(:
note to self: cool down on the swearing.

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you know what? I BET ALL OF YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS, YESYESYES? BECAUSE I HAVEN'T AND I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. i made one and that is to be neater and shit, because, really, have you seeeeeen my room? there are things on the floor, under the bed (together with a shitload of dust), on the desk, behind the radio, in front of the radio, on my bed. ET CETERA. it is INSANE. and i recently found an old packet of sweets which i misplaced AGES ago (prabably around november last year), and there were ants EVERYWHERE. no wonder there were ants on my bed and all. EW. and i had actually been wondering where they were coming from.
yea, so, back to the point. I AM GOING TO START CLEANING MY ROOM THIS HOLIDAY. clean out junks, change the sheets/curtains, tidy up the floor, make space on the floor so that i can actually sweep/vacuum. OMG. I SOUND LIKE A HOUSEWIFE. HOW COOL.
the only thing left to do is to PAINT THE FREAKING WALLS. i'll do it during the june hols. THE PARENTS HAVE PROMISED THAT THEY ALLOW ME TO DO SO BY THE END OF THE YEAR. they BETTER not go back on their words.

i'm excited.

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i have a new favourite band, i love it. although i won't mention it here since i will start to not like them once they get popular and mainstream, so there. but they're everywhere in my stardate. ..
NEVERMIND.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"hey, afrah. it's your birthday today right?" *i nod slowly* *she shakes my hand* "ROCK ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!" *does the 'rock on' sign* "but i rock more lah. *pause* obviously."
-lee pei.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW WEIRDED OUT I WAS AFTER THAT. i may need therapy.

2007-02-24T12:42:00.000+08:00

okay. i shall write up a post to make my blog not as dead as seems. although it is. shit.
shitshitshit! my mind is blank. i really should start blogging more often so that it's easier for me to think up of what to blog, yes? it is fucking dead. (damn. all those people swearing have really got to me. wtf. thou shalt control myself. YES I WILL. i will try.) and my layout is getting preeeeeety boring. i mean, how many times have i said on here that i will change it, huh? about 10million times. and my music player thing hasn't been working for ages. AGES!

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i want to go out. i want to meet new people. i want to know new people. i want to have new friends. i want be a friend to somebody. i want to get a fucking life where i don't sit around all day rotting my fucking ass off in front of this shithole* of a computer doing nothing. i want to instead go out and see the real world and be known and to venture to places i've never been to. i want to, for once, do something adventurous and not think twice and not contemplate too much over things and not care about the consequences (unless it's a matter of life and death) and just have a time of my life and not bother about what people think of me. i want to not be a coward. i want to know that life has something in store for me. i want to know what i want to do in the future. i want to know.
i want to get what i want.

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i feel like going shopping. (great, i almost spelt going as gong again. screw this stupid keyboard.) no, really. like shop-till-i-drop-and-roll-all-over-the-floor kind of shop, YANNO? i have been daydreaming so many times about going everywhere just buying anything and everything that i want and carrying a ton of shopping bags around like i'm rich and spoilt, like on those ads on tv, yannowhaddumsayin'? i can't remember the last time i stepped out of sembawang/yishun/amk/yewtee, because that's all my life is right now. staying at home, going to school, to amk for classes, and after a whole week of school, i hve to go over to my cousin's place every weekend to help out in the wedding preparation and shit. everything i do is not what i want to do. everything i do is what i have to do, what i'm told to do, what i'm supposed to do, what i'm forced to do. for once, i feel like letting my guard down and doing everything unimaginable.
never will happen.

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KHAIRIAH i hope you don't mind me stealing the poem off your blog. besides, i came up with half of it, so yea. although i'll edit the punctuation here and there, because i really can't stand bad grammar.

You look like Frankenstine,
Who parked his car in the cemetery and got fined,
And got dumped by his valentine
Because he had a screw down his spine;
But nevermind.

He went out next time
And find
That he had lost his mind,
Because his butt shines
Like a golden mine.
Then he committed a crime;
From a lady, he stole a dime.
But the lady poked him,
Then he got blind.

The lady had actually committed many crimes;
She had dead bodies in her house, all aligned.
And Frankenstine
Was next in line.
But then again, he doesn't mind
Because he had lost his mind.

And that was the tragic tale of Frankenstine.

[c] KHAI&FRAHZ PRODUCTIONS
yea, baby.

*i only said it's a shithole because i was feeling pissed off. my computer is a special thing, really.

2007-02-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

ahahaha. i feel so freaking accomplished after completing the whole chemistry/diamond-graphite-silicondioxide/whatever shit thing on blogger. :D i don't know what i was thinking when i volunteered myself in the group to make a website since we only had two days to complete it and i did it in only one day. but, wtf, I COMPLETED IT! now ms scp better give me those marks i deserve. she better.
now, all i have to do is study for three tests tomorrow while it's already past midnight. whoopee. ..

PS. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! i was planning on making a lotttt of people cards but since that chemistry project thing just took up probably half of my lifetime to do, i don't think i'll be able to do as many as i want. sooooooooo, let's just see, shall we?

PPS. i learnt something today; i love the new meaning khairiah gave to ytss earlier today. HAHA.

2007-02-11T17:06:00.000+08:00

it's 5.07pm on a sunday evening and i'm in front of this computer feeling bored out of my freaking bones. and the hot&humid weather is definitely not a help either. wtff.
peekvid is not working. well, it is. but the videos just refuse to load. tsk. and i waited over a million years just for the site to upgrade, thinking that everything will be better and easier, but it's worse and the pages load so slowly and the videos won't even start loading. damn!
but, heyy, there's always youtube. HAH. thank god for youtube, i stayed up so freaking late on friday (or saturday morning, if you're that picky.) just to watch heroes up to episode 14. it is theeeee best show EvAaA!!!1!!1!1! no, seriously, it is. now, people without cable, go kill youself. or just watch it on youtube. search username hakabish because he(/she) is DA MAN(/woman.)
(ps, i love hiro nakamura, no shit.)

and i found the whole billy elliot movie on youtube. !!!. FINALLY. i have been searching for it for ages. ahhh. jamie bell is too freaking adorable in that film. and to those who haven't watched it yet, GO WATCH IT, YOU WACKOS. IT'S THE BEST MOVIE THE WORLD. um, well, after little miss sunshine because their accent is friggin hard to understand. but i love the movie anyhow. :D

i really need to get a new layout.

2007-02-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

i have decided that i'm going to read Everything Is Illuminated and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close again, because Jonathan Safran Foer is one of the best authors ever, really, and it beats trying to find the Everything Is Illuminated movie. but, of course, i only get to do that after i've read the two other literature books that i have to read plus those intensive reading passages.
i really hate the school for controlling what i read. either they stop shoving us with dull stories or start giving us Jonathan Safran Foer extracts. or maybe Ellen Hopkins, i don't mind. i love them both, i'm not kidding. and Mark Haddon is okay-ish as well. has he written any other books besides The Curious Incident.. ?
and i shall try to read Tuesdays With Morrie and Five People You Meet In Heaven since lifen said they're good. and also books by Jodi Picoult.. ? i have yet to read at least one of her books.

wow, i can't believe i just wrote a truckload of words just about books. i really am turning into a geek. i guess this is the loner life, yea? reading books, telling loner jokes, having no friends. ohhh yeahhh. this is the life, baybaaay. 2007-2008 are going to be the worst years ever. i've never hated my life more.
okay, there i go again, going on and on pitying myself.

you know, those leica cameras on today's digital life (page 20. i know, i'm such a loser for remembering things like this.) are extremely sexy. i want the first one, but hell, it's over 4k so, whatever. but i really want a leica camera, film, not digital, that looks somewhat like the one in the papers. great, i'm already thinking of buying other things when i haven't even got my hands on a canon eos 350d yet. omgoshhhhhhh. canon cameras are the sex. maybe i should start printing pictures of cmeras to paste on the cover of my schoolfile rather than replacing it with some guy, yea? i'll be more motivated to save up more, and not spend. at all.
but fuccckkkkkk. i spent a LOT today. and last week! ahh. i didn't even have a single cent saved last week. wtf. i shall not spend anything when i'm in summer joy this thursday, i swear with my little pinky. and then i will be able to save tenbucks. yes yes.
my parents still owe me $350. since last december. pfft.

this has got to be one of my longest post ever.

2007-02-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

i hate school. darn it. it's already, say, the 1846451848th week of school (or so it feels) and i'm still not used to the whole 10-hours-of-school system. SCREW! and, DAAAAAMN, it's only the start of february.
i hate februarys(/ies?).

i've realised that i hate a lot of people. must be this new social-outcast thing.
i hate people who talk too much, and i hate people who are too soft.
i hate people who are dirty, and i hate overly-clean people.
i hate people who ignore me, i ignore people who i hate.
i hate school, i hate school, i hate school.

i hate it that i feel i don't have friends anymore, online and off.
i hate it that i have this serious low self esteem issue going on.

i really don't have friends anymore. people in school have their own friends, whatever. people online don't talk to me anymore because i don't go online much. people at home are rarely home, or when they are, we just watch tv together then sleep, we don't talk.
i miss going around school having a best friend beside, rather than staying back in class during breaks reading a book all alone in class like some geek while everyone i sout there sharing secrets and gossiping. i miss having someone to call my best friend.
i miss spending money on nothings, rather than saving up on something that would keep my mind off being a stupid loner in school.
i miss walking around feeling so free without any care in the (really screwed up) world.

i feel miserable.

2007-01-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

i have a boring life.
i feel like a geek now.
i'm the worst anti-social person ever.
i've given up on trying to make frienzz.
i think about things too much.
life would be better off if it was like myspace.
it would be great if everyone has an "Add Me" button on them.
i need more money.
i want to travel the world.
i don't think i'm satisfied at all with what i currently have.
i'm a social reject.

skdjfbsfbkjsfbkf. kill me for being the worst pessimist in this world ever. whatever. i think i'm going to end up as an old spinster living in a kampung house in some ulu place with 3829565936459 cats, einstein hair, and no friends because all of them would have a happy family by then and they would be too busy to come visit an old crazy 80-year old with no life (ie me).

2007-01-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

GOOD NEWS!
-i have found the whole little miss sunshine movie online. (!!)
-i have ALSO found the whole borat movie online. (!!!)
(i thank livejournal for those two things above. :DD i just hope my computer accepts rapidshare.)
-i am going to be fifteen soon and i'm going to get my ic.(:
-i got $14 worth of duit raya yesterday. :D
-it is 2007.

BAD NEWS!
-school is tomorrow. WTF.
-six articles and two compositions are still not done yet.
-i have to sacrifice much of this old computer's space to download the two movies mentioned above.
-i still want to watch fight club and everything is illuminated.
-i still can't remember what other movies i want to watch.
-it is 2007.

i think i have this irritating habit now to write lists everywhere. i really need to get myself a notepad.

2006-12-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK TO CIVILISATION! (i spelt that right, right?) omg. spending less than a day at a kampung house is more than enough for me. especially with cousins i'm not close to, because they're on my father's side. i really think they're weird. really. (they dance along to raihan, sing along to nasyids (sp?), get excited when those hari raya haji thingies come on tv. WTH.) i don't think i will ever fit in. and that's a good thing. and plus, there was no water supply, around 25 people in the house had to share one small pail of water to bathe/shit/pee/whatever. omg. i've never used so little water in my life, i'm serious. thank god i'm back home where i can bathe again and shampoo my hair with my dear herbal essence. :D

so anyways. so like two days ago i read this book. AHH. I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS BOOK AND I'M GOING TO READ IT AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, I AM NOT KIDDING. i have never, ever in my life cried myself silly over a book but this one did. and it's probably the thickest book i've ever read as well. (think harry potter thick.) but the whole book is told out in poems/verses. it's amazing. all those rachel hawthorne books are shit compared to this. SRSLY.
burned by ellen hopkins, teenage section, semb library. GO READ. but, of course, it's not there now since it's with me. paha. i'm going to read the book. again! ;DD

i have a whole list of movies i want to watch.
-fight club.
-everything is illuminated.
-little miss sunshine.
shit, i can't remember the rest. ahhhh. i want to watch them! i want to i want to i want to! tsk.
but, whatever. i have the whole south park movie in MY NEW MP4 PLAYER (got to show off a little bit, yes?). pahahaha. but i'll probably go delete it away. it's taking up too much space. grr.

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
TOMORROW IS THE FIRST OF JANUARY.
SCHOOL STARTS IN THREE FUCKING DAYS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
(i always swear when it comes to school now, get used to it.)

2006-12-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

i've never cried in the longest time but i did yesterday. he's one of the most beautiful babies i've ever seen. he really is. it's sad to see his siblings as well. crying although they're that young.
i finally got hold of some pictures of him when he was still at the hospital. with tubes sticking into him because he can't eat and breathe on his own.

.

okay, i don't want to think too much about it.(:
sfnkjsdfnksabsdf. my homework's still not done. somebody PLEASE give me the motivation to do so. i hate writing and thinking and all that shit. ew ew ew. i can't wait for the end of 2008, i can't wait to leave the craphole, i can't wait to burn all my books. i can't wait. i can't stand to see all those people dumb enough to work in that craphole to torture us and stuff our brains with all those useless information and brainwash us to do things we'll never do once we get out of there. oh god. i fucking hate school. (i know, i just swore, whatever. shut up.)

this is my christmas list (even though i don't celebrate christmas.) :
-canon eos 350d or nikon d50
-a better mp3/mp4 player.
-lose 2000000000lbs
-renovate my room
-one million dollars
-no freaking school for the rest of my freaking life
-to be an audience on oprah's favourite things so that i can get all those things she's giving away and sell them all and be a spoilt, rich brat.
-the inability to gain anymore weight even after i've eaten everything edible on this planet.

i think i need some sort of therapy.

ps, you know what? alias kadir is in the hospital because he had a heart attack. hah, random i know. my uncle went to visit him yesterday. he's not a big fan or anything, they're just friends.

pps, i have been using the computer for over 10hours. z0mFgZz!!1!11

2006-12-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

you know, i don't know what to feel anymore. this world is too screwed up already. i can't stand it.
i got the news that my newborn cousin just passed away earlier today. who am i to kid, it does suck. and i haven't even met him yet. i haven't got the chance to carry him and hold him in my arms and play with him or anything. he's only 2 weeks old. 2 weeks! but i like to think that everything has to happen for a reason, whatever it is.(:

aside from that, i got a creative zen v plus! although it's only 2gb, but whateverrr. (i tried sulking and pulling a bloody long face and begging like there's no tomorrow so that my parents could buy me that 30gb vision:m or something, but they didn't have enough cash. damnnnn.)
now my father owes me 200bucks. and my mother still owes me 150bucks.
i have some serious issues.

2006-12-14T16:16:00.000+08:00

i'm going camping tomorrow! and by the end of it, i'll be covered in mosquito bites and a ton of dead skin due to me getting sunburnt. CAN MY LIFE GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS?
so, i've been wasting my life away this holiday playing neopets 24/7, procrastinating to do my homework, watching kids central and oprah daily, and gaining probably about 100kg while trying to shed at least 5kg. ohhhh yeaaaaaaaah.

you know, i have been having very, VERY weird dreams lately, and one or two of them seem to be coming true. i'm scared. especially of the one where mtpp is going to my form teacher again. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. although in the dream she was teaching us science and maths, which is impossible, but still! i don't want her anymoreeeeee. (now, let's just hope she doesn't have access to my blog, yea?)

i have to do some shopping for the camping/barbeque stuff now. ^.^

2006-12-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

i feel like my life is so freaking depressing. although i wouldn't say i'm depressed. everyone is using that word so loosely now, i don't like it. okay whatever. i feel like a have problems, but at the same time i feel indifferent about everything. i don't know. i'm not even talking like a sane human being now. i need therapy.

i just learnt that my newborn cousin has the same disease that my late niece had. or somewhat the same, i don't know. i don't know how i feel about it, but it sure sucks. i haven't even seen him. i only saw a not-clear-at-all picture of him on a camera phone, with tubes and more tubes sticking into his small body. i want to see him.):
it made me think of my late niece again though. how she was never able to explore the world on her own and all that deep stuff that i have no idea how to express. and the most memorable incident was when she was at the hospital. people say that there's just one moment in your life before you go, you know, up there, that you're really, truly happy. and i'm proud to say that her moment was when me, my brother and my cousin when up to visit her. everyone said that she had been feeling weak for so long and she was always lying down. but the first and probably last time she got up on her own was when she saw us going up to her, greeting her, seeing her smile so genuinely happily. and then she lied back down again, and she got even sicker.
i don't want to elaborate further. she would have turned seven about a week ago if she was still here.(:
it's harder to lose a child than somebody who's dying of old age, that's for sure.

and my family's money problem is getting seriously out of hand. i even had to buy my schoolbooks with my savings because my parents don't have enough money. and the bills and fees and more bills are popping up like there's no tomorrow. it's insanely frustrating looking at others who are better of than you are, but i guess i can't do anything about it, can i? i'll probably get some job next year tutoring my cousins for their psle or helping out my aunt at her hawker stall. i don't care. i guess that dslr of my dreams will stay there. in my dreams that is. (omg, ew. how corny does that sound?)

i srsly need a better life than this.

lol, i miss writing stike-out, tiny-text posts.(:
oh, and ps. i'm planning on a new skin. but it'll take quite a while, yea?((:

2006-12-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A NEW COUSIN AS OF YESTERDAY.
WOOHOO.
and i'm going to visit him later.(((((:

so now i currently have.. 36/37 cousins? or more, i dunno. i might have missed some out while counting.
I HAVE A HUUUUGE FAMILY YAY.

ps, sorry for the lack of posts. i have been playing neopets everyday, and have no time for anything else. (even myspace, yes. now i have no more friends on there because i keep playing np nonstop. paha.)

pps, i haven't been online on msn as well because i hate going on there and nobody talks that much anyway and the people i usually talk to on msn have myspace so they can comment me if they want to tell me something. :D

ppps, ANYONE WANT TO BUY OLD ISSUES OF SMASH HITS? please? i have tons, and i want to get rid of them all while gaining some money from that as well. and also because I NEED THE MONEY GOD DAMMIT. (i was dumb enough to buy each of them for $8.45, when i know i can actually read those interviews on the net for free. wth.) i'll sell them for $1-$3? i don't know how to put prices on things like these. oh, and i have a lot of old issues of lime and some 8days as well, but i doubt anybody would want to buy them. so i'm just giving them away to mr karang guni man, yea?(:

pppps, and other than magazines, i want to sell my tees as well. used or not, see which ones you want. um, $5-$10? I SUCK AT STATING PRICES. and my camera is bloody spoilt, so you have to come over to MAH CRIB to check them out. yo.

ppppps, okay, i have a ton of other things to sell also LARRHH. just come here and see and buy cannnn?

pppppps, and once again, ANYBODY WANT TO GO HAVE HAIRCUT ANOT? i have been asking around since 51681684313151 years ago. pfffffft.

2006-12-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

I WANT MY NEOPOINTS TO BE CONVERTED TO SING DOLLARS. srsly. i'd be S$1,365,300 richer. HOW COOL IS THAT? and then i'll get S$143,356 of interest every year. ahhhh. why doesn't neopets allow us to play games and earn real money at the same time? hurrrrrrr.

i am going to watch happy feet in a moment or two. (not my money of course.) finally! i'm watching a movie in the cinema! pahahaha.

ps, i love the hush sound.(:

2006-11-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

I AM POPULAR ON MYSPACE. it is true. i get about 15 profile views in less than 24hours. AHAHAHAHA.
okay, just play along with me already, will you? and why are there ants all over my computer screen? GOSH.

two more days to december, and i still haven't got myself a goddamn job. wth. why is everyone accepting only above sixteens, with 4 o level passes and bilingual in english and chinese?! OMG. just give me that job already. ffs! i am not going to cause some havoc like paris&nicole or anything. I NEED THE MONEY YOU EFFING BUNSHOLES. daaaaaaaaaamn. i am pissed off.
i wish my parents were richer so at least i can borrow some money from them for the time being. but i am POOR. i hate it. hatehatehate! their combined money intheir banks won't even get me what i want. :O pfffffffffft. i need to get adopted by madonna or brad&angelina. srsly. i'll rob them till they're poor and go back to my own family and we can get rich! ahahaha, i'm such a robin hood wannabe. ew.

list of things i need:
-dslr (!!!)
-new room
-a job
-money
-rich parents
-very very rich and very very generous friends (haha)
-mr bill gates to be my BFF!! i will rob him off of all his money. HA-ha.
-new haircut
-more money
-a new life

ps, ew. ryan ross has very ugly hair now. he should have stuck to the old one. the amazing, hot and sexy one. :D now it's like this. ewwwwwww.

2006-11-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

i wish i wasn't this bored. it might have been more interesting to watch paint dry, but then the father won't allow me to paint the room just yet. i have been talking about wanting to get a job this holiday, but i still haven't come round to it at all. talk about procrastinating. i'll try to get one before december. damnn.

i've just realised how poor my family is. srsly. my cable was cut off the other day because my parents didn't pay the bills. i'm probably going to school next year without any school books because the rest of the bills haven't been settled yet. i can't buy paint + new curtains + new bedspreads to redecorate my room because of the bills. i have to cut down my time on the internet because it's just making the bills worse. that's the hardest one obviously. damn the billssssssss.
but, on the bright side, i got myself a new schoolbag. tsk, and my mother has to teach me how to spend my money wisely. she should look at herself in the mirror. hurr. we went shopping at that aeon tebrau city place in jb two days ago. omg, that place is huge. i love it there.(: and i got myself a cheap clock as well. woohoo.
and after that, i have become much much poorer than before.

if only my father hadn't thrown away that treadmill we had a few months ago. i wouldn't have been worrying about how much fatter i've gotten because of the major lack of exercise. and, no, i shall not resort to public humiliation by going to the gym. ffs! and if only i'm not that insecure as well. it would make things so much more easier.

i seriously have to get a better life than this.

2006-11-23T03:29:00.000+08:00

i think i am too sadistic for my own good. i've been wasting the past, oh, one hour or so watching this dumb computer-generated blonde in a skimpy bikini distort her body into the worst possible manner. it's really enjoyable, because i personally think she looks a teeny bit like paris hilton when she had short hair. HAHA.
nothing beats watching paris hilton suffer.
CLICK HERE MY FRIENDS. you know you want to.

i saw a cab with this number plate a few days ago..
SH 1111 T
it made me laugh.(:

2006-11-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

my cousins (+ aunt&uncle) just came back from london today. after two whole years of staying there. and now alllllllllllll four of them (aunt&uncle excluded) have adopted british accents. I AM JEALOUS. jealous, i tell you. not only because they've stayed in london for two whole years (and got to school with the locals there as well), they have these really adorable british accents. and they can't speak malay anymore. :O (they will though, once they get used to it again.) OMG. this is the closest i can get to having anything angmoh related to me, so i will appreciate it. OMGIWANTTHEIRACCENTS.
BUT i was pissed off at all the rest of my relatives who were making fun of them. "eh eh. budak budak ni, pergi london sekarang semua speaking speaking." geez, OF COURSE LAH. you can't help but talk like the people around you when you're in a foreign place and when you're as young as them, right? damn those too-melayu people. give them time or something. HURR.

enough ranting.
tomorrow is the last day of raya, hahhh. and i got eight bucks HR money today. :DDDDDD finally, i've reached the $200 mark. WOOHOO. and now, all i have left is a gazillion and one dollars to that dslr. pfft.
i am trying to find an online job, but i have no idea how to differentiate between scams and the real, genuine ones. and i'm still trying to figure out how paypal works without me having a credit card. I WANT TO GET A JOB ASAP. why are most job offers on classifieds require you to be able to speak in mandarin? i find this unfair. really really. i am pissed off.

anyhow, i feel like having a haircut. (yet again, yes.) anybody planning to have one as well? or you're going to get some rebonding done or anything at all. i can meet up with you, i'm free everyday. you can do the talking to the hairdresser as well on what my hair will look like. i feel like taking risks for once, so i'm embracing that fact by having you decide for me. not too drastic though, and nothing too short or the father will kill me, yea? kthx.(:
oh, and besides that, anybody want to meet up and have fun again? i need to get out of this house asap.

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ahhhhh, i lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove this song sososososososososososososo much. omg, it literally brings a tear to my eye everytime i listen to this song, especially so if i watch the video. it has been a while, and thank god for youtube. omgggggg. i love casper! and i want to watch the movie again! ahhh, the memories.(:
i shall watch the video again and make myself cry like there's no tomorrow.
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2006-11-20T05:22:00.000+08:00

i think jamie bell is gorgeous.(:

SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME WHERE I CAN GET TO WATCH BILLY ELLIOT AGAIN?
i miss that film so much. youtube and myspace videos are being such fags, they only have clips and no full movie. darnnn.

OMG. it's 5.30am. and i have to get up at 10am later on. i need some sleeeeeep.

2006-11-16T04:18:00.000+08:00

PAHAHAHAHAHA. i've only just realised that it was wentworth miller that was in mariah carey's we belong together video. ahahahahha. how embarrassing it is, to be associated with her. sheesh.
okay, now, i'm going to get a lot of hate mails from wentworth miller fans. i don't mind really, because i'm getting really sick of those really ridiculous chain mails i keep getting. i mean, HEL-LO, m'dears. i'm still alive and kicking. i did not get hanged by the ghost of a little girl last night when i went to bed. nor did i get oh-so-sad because my crushy wushy did not talk to me. awww.... OMG GET A LIFE.

i think i need to get used to meeting strangers as of now. although, of course, i might hide some kind of a machine gun or baseball bat or police alarm in my bagpack if something goes wrong, but it's always nice to meet people you know from the internet, yes? i don't see anything wrong, really. my cousin even got a boyfriend off the net. i might very well do the same in the near future, since i'm too poor to travel to get myself an angmoh boyfriend. HAH. mm, maybe i'll go find ryan ross' lj or something. ahh, now isn't that a wonderful thought?(:

you know, i'm getting really agitated that i still have no dslr to call my own. ffs! i suddenly remembered all those times when i was about 7/8, i used to spend allllll my money on sweets and nonsensical toys which are of no use at all really. ahh! i could've saved all those money! i would have been playing around with my dslr right now instead of writing a lameass blog entry. omgoshhhhh.
once again, WHY OH WHY OH WHY AM I NOT RICH??!

2006-11-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

OMG HOW COOL ARE THESE CANDLES? can somebody please buy that for me as n early early birthday present please? and if not that, what about this eh? OMG I AM SO GREEDY. but those are just amazing things.
i came across those while browshing all those amazingly amazing bedspreads and curtains online. i have one complaint to make though. WHY ARE SHOWER CURTAINS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING THAN NORMAL CURTAINS? pfft. maybe i'll just end up hanging a shower curtain for my room window, yea? it'll beunique and nice and cool all at the same time.(:

AND OMG I WANT A LOMO CAMERA! nfnfsnflsfoisfklnlnl! i want a frogeye lomo and a fisheye lomo and a normal lomo. but then i want to get my dslr first. but before anything i shall buy myself a new memory card. i just found out that mine is only 128mb. ew. no wonder i can only put in only a few pictures. god! i want that new 4gb memory card! but i'll be happy with a 1gb anyhow. andand. i need to get a new usb for my camera. or a new camera altogether, because i don't know which one of those two dickheads of mine are refusing to let my pictures get uploaded onto my computer. ffs! WHY AM I NOT RICH??!

2006-11-13T19:47:00.000+08:00

omg, no! i'm doing more and more quizzes. i don't like it. pfft.
but i'm insanely bored today, so wth.

Bold the following that are true about you,
italicize things you wish were true,
add one true thing about you,
and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I absolutely love my friends.
I love to play video games.
I can work with HTML.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
I like/have liked people of the same sex as me.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I have a blog.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausages.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I'm a good listener if you want to talk to me
I dig gigs
I love to watch the Lword
I'm a lesbian & I love my girlfriend.
I love taking pictures.
I'm rich.

2006-11-11T04:31:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A NEW BORING LAYOUT. how cool is that? i was thinking of what to do to waste my time in front of the computer other than myspacing or lj-ing or whatnot, so i decided to make me a new layout. and then added a ton more songs into my music player. i'm probably leaving for n.sembilan in about twoandahalf hours (MISS ME PEOPLE!), and i'm not supposed to sleep because the mother asked me to stay up and wake her up later. woohoo. so now i don't have to worry about what to do throughout my 4-hour journey later, i can just sleep and dream of dreams.(:

tsk, i have an hour to waste. ahh, i'll just go watch bntm on youtube, yea? :D

2006-11-10T05:17:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling bored enough to do a survey now. :D what else can you do at this time of the night?

What was...

The last movie you watched?
hm, can't remember. it's been ages.
The last song you listened to?
girl anachronism by the dresden dolls (:
The last book you read?
haunted by chuck palahniuk. (i haven't been to the library for so long now, i think i'm going crazy. i had a dream a few nights ago that i overnight-ed at the semb library. oh god!)
The last thing you ate?
SATAY!
The last thing you drank?
ICE CREAM SODA. i'm really unhealthy.
The last scent you smelled?
er, not sure..
The last dessert you ate?
can't remember.
The last thing you fell over?
um, bed. :
The last picture you took?
i think it was of my room. i was bored last night.
The last person you kissed?
er, don't know. my mother maybe..? (:
The last person you hugged?
same answer as above.
The last person you talked to?
myself.:D
The last person who made you cry?
no clue.
The last person who made you laugh?
?.
The last person you saw?
my brother. : :
The last person you dated?
no one.(:
The last person you loved?
friends&family? ♥
The last person who spent time with you?
family. (:
The last person you hated?
the school for ruining my life again. >:(
The last person who was mean to you?
forgot.
The last person who was nice to you?
mah homies yo.
The last time you ate?
um, 3-4 hours ago.
The last time you slept?
23 hours ago. :D (it's 5.30am now, i slept at 6.30 yesterday.)
The last time you used the bathroom?
er, a few hours ago.. ?
The last time you cried?
can't remember.
The last time you laughed?
today. with the family.(:
The last time you hurt yourself?
always; i'm clumsy.
The last time that you read?
32164535135168 years ago.
The last time that you listened to a CD all the way through?
every single day.
The last time you spent a night over at someone else's house?
last weekend over at my cousins'.
The last time you spent with a friend?
tuesday in school.
The last time you cursed?
right now. (;
The last time you prayed?
today.
The last time you wished you were dead?
can't remember. :
The last time you wished someone else was dead?:
ahahaha. every second of the day. mm hmm.
The last time you wished you didn't have to end something?
everday when the mother screams at me to turn off the computer. i can't bear to leave, that's why i'm always sneaking in at night, like now. ;D
The last time you played a videogame?
oh gosh, ages ago!
The last time you watched TV?
4 and a half hours ago.
The last time you wrote something down on paper?
yesterday.
The last time you smiled?
now because i'm odd.
The last time you were truly happy?
hm, a long time ago i think.
The last time that you were sad?
er, a few days ago.):
The last time you told someone that you loved them?
forgot.
The last time you talked on the phone?
hours ago.
The last time you posted on an internet forum?
a few months ago.
The last time you sent an email?
omg, emails! how long has that been?
The last time you used IM programs to talk to someone?
every single day.
The last time you updated your blog/webpage/livejournal/etc.?
right now. (;
The last time that you sat and thought about your life?
every night before going to sleep. that why i can't sleep, i think too much.):
The last time in which you declared "I hate you!"?
always.
The last time you downloaded something off the internet?
just did.
The last time you took a survey?
maybe a month ago or something.

2006-11-09T03:57:00.000+08:00

you know, i predict that my next two years are going to be HELL. ergh. what luck to get into a class i don't want to be in, and for two years at that. TWO YEARS! 365*2=730 days! >:( well, thank you very much, dear school, for ruining my life yet again.(: .. PFFT!

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hm, so, i'm currently in my room attempting to blog although i'm writing this with pen and paper because the brother is using the computer currently, so i have to type all this down later. tell me i'm pathetic. it really isn't fun to share computers, y'know. ergh.

and speaking of my room, ahh! i srsly can't stand it! how i manage to live with it for nine, yes NINE, years is a miracle. it's getting on my last nerve, that clutterd, pink, childish room. i'll go paint it this holiday, it's a promise! mm hmm. i'm thinking shades of grey or b&w, HOW BOUT THAT, HUH? and i want those amazing vintage bedspreads i found while online-window-shopping earlier today. but they cost a FORTUNE. DARN. oh well. andand. i'm going to paint my cupboard and desk! my father, after all these years, only told me last weekend that they're all paint-able. FFS! he should've told me that the moment we moved here, i would have painted it right there and then! tsk.
AND! i want to put some prints on my walls as well. HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE? ahh, i love the image of myroom in my head now. and maybe, i can lock myself in that room after a whole day of shit with my new class everyday for the next two years, eh? and i wouldn't be pissed off at how pink it is. WOOHOO. -.-'

fine, enough about my (really ugly) room. so, after being in m'sia the whole day yesterday, my mother just told me today that i'll be going to m'sia AGAIN on saturday. AND TO N.SEMBILAN. how bloody far! ): BUTbut, the next day i might be going out jalanraya-ing with the hml people, IF it works out. i'll go spread the word in a few. but if it does, i'll be blooooody happy, for obvious reasons. I WANT MY DSLR AND I DON'T CARE WHAT I'LL DO TO GET IT. except for, of course, selling my body or going around house to house of people i don't know and asking for money like some mats and minahs out there. gosh, like, get a life already!

wow, super long post. go me!

2006-11-08T16:09:00.000+08:00

SKFBSFIDSKLADFH/F'OFJ[FFK:f?/SDF,S;'FOJ'FPJSD';FJJSA;DFSODFJS;FJ'OK'./,P]OFSF
!!!!!!!!!!

SRSLY!

2006-11-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

"Homesickness is just a state of mind for me. I'm always missing someone or someplace or something, I'm always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. My life has been one long longing."

Elizabeth Wurtzel - Prozac Nation

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god, i'm so bored. why isn't there anyone worth talking to on msn right now? tsk, hate msn. and myspace is being boring today as well. hurr. and there'll be guests coming over again later, so i can't change out of this unbearably stuffy set of clothes i'm currently wearing.
and, eww. i hate my skin being too sensitive. my fat arms and thighs look like something out of a horror movie. godddd! if you tell me you can't stand your life, i'd tell you you're joking. unless, of course, you're from africa, live on the streets, or my clone.

didn't understand what i just said? don't worry, we're in the same boat.

tsk, almost every other blog i go to, everyone is talking about how much they'll miss 2006. blahhh. i hate 2006. HATE! i can't wait for 2007. oh my, yes. but we'll see. maybe i'll go on hating 2007 as well, because i've never been satisfied with anything. hm, maybe i'll just wait till 2008 ends, so i can get out of the craphole (that is secondary school) and get into a new school, and then a job. ahh, the adult life.
heck, maybe i won't be satisfied with that either. i need help. *nods* yes i do.

the guests are here. DARN.

2006-11-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

you know, i can't stand it when people use the word you're when they're supposed to use your and, well, vice versa. i mean, HELLO??! common sense tells you that you're is short for you are, so stop using it wrongly already. !!. gosh. this isn't something difficult, is it? even ahlians (not all,but most) and minahs (the ones that actually speak english sometimes) can do it, i don't get why everyone else can't. FFS!

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has anyone watched that video by lady sovereign, "love me or hate me"? very cute, in my opinion. haha. and so is the song. and she looks a little bit like melanie c, don't you think? or maybe it's just me. :| but i love that song anyway. :D ah, okay, i'm putting the video up since my entries seem boring nowadays.

:D

hm, i better go reply my comments over at myspace before going out for hari raya later today.:D gr, can't do things to my blog today.

2006-11-02T16:39:00.000+08:00

hm, i'm thinking of redo-ing so many things currently. this blog, my room etc. but most importantly, my life. i've just realised how really inorganised i am, and i guess it's good to change.. no?
so, maybe i'll dedicate my time on the computer tomorrow to sort out my blog, that is change the skin into a very minimalistic one, edit out my profile, change the links, sort out the music player.
and then the next day i'll go sort out my pictures. upload everything onto my photobucket accounts. no, this will take much more than just one day. mm, three days maybe? yep.
and then after that, i'll probably start to find a job for myself. but if i can't find any (hopefully not), i'll go sort out my room, and beg the father to start buying me the paints and all that. i'm thinking of redoing everything in my room; the positioning of cupboards/bed and throwing out the redundant things and buying new things all that. and i want to go shopping for new bedsheets and curtains! i can't stand having flower-ish bedsheets, it's annoying! and curtains! i want plain ones, or at lest something less embarrassing.): although nothing can beat the pink walls and ceilings and cupboards and desk. gahhh. if only i can paint my cupboards.

well, for now i'll just continue browing other people's rooms on lj to give me some ideas, yea?(:

2006-10-30T18:46:00.000+08:00

nikon d50, nikon d80, canon eos 350d, or what??! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i hate making decisions like this. but i want i dslr! and, ONCE AGAIN, i saw the bus advertising the nikon d50 today. i hate how much it tempts me and making me not look where i'm going. tsk. i want it sooo bad, you have no idea.

and! i took what syara suggested into consideration. i'm thinking of getting a job at a kodak store. it sounds fun! and maybe i'll get to know a thing or two about what to do in the redroom..? ah, i want! hm, maybe after all the hoo-ha of hari raya is over, i'll go to every kodak store there is in singapore to get myself a job. mm, i'll probably just go and do that. :D

and, you know. a miracle just happened today. it's the first time since the first day of hari raya that i don't have any guests coming over, nor am i going out anytime soon. ahh, finally! it's been so tiring, entertaining the guests and going out the whole day everyday. but the money's coming in! whoo.
but my father got me all jealous yesterday. hurrr. he said he used to get about $600-$800 every hari raya when he was a kid. how unfair! and he didn't even have to go out much; my grandfather was just really popular among the kampung people that time. grr, i want my father to get popular. now! paha. wishful thinking.

oh god, i realise that i want to have so many things. things to get and things to get done. like, sayyy, get my room painted, get my room a nice book rack (hahh), earn money, get myself a dslr, a lomo (!!), and lose 20lbs! and maybe a thing or ten more. loll.
i'm such a spoilt brat.

2006-10-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

[rant]
oh gosh. my cousins decided to be models today and me, the photographer, took awful pictures. just plain awful! erghh. i hate my camera really, but it's all i have now while saving up for a dslr. grr, my composition is just way to awkward and such. i need to learn the rule of thirds and all that. damn, i don't even know what it is; something about dividing the picture into nine parts? argh.
after i save up for a dslr, i shall sign myself up for a photography course. yes i will. although it'll cost a bomb, but it'll be worth it. and then buy the necessary lenses and equipments and shit. macro and fisheye is a must.:D and practice way more.): but for the mean time, anybody wants to be models for me please?! i want to practise my portraits. FFS!
[/rant]

well, sooo. hari raya has been fun, yes. but obviously too tiring. my family is hugggge, so i have to go out everyday. either that, or the family comes over. like today; i'm having an open house for them. ah, it's already two minutes to one, and everybody's still here joking and stuff. not that i'm complaining, i love having the family here. but i feel exhausted.
AND! a group of mini mats stood at my front door today wanting to come in and attempt daylight robbery. hah! effing bunsholes. i shooed them away obv, but i caught their pissed off face. paha! good for them, those good-for-nothing, money-faced... people. i can't think of a witty remark now. >:(

ah, okay, i have to layan my guests now, yea? :D

2006-10-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

lmaoooo. you have got to see this.

ahahaha. i literally lol-ed at that, srsly. (oh, and khai, it's the music that makes it funny, so GET YOUR SPEAKERS FIXED!) hahh.

LOL! funniest things ever, those teletubbies. and kudos to whoever made them videos. you probably have got too much free time on your hands, yea? ahaha.
srsly though, i used to be scared of those teletubbies. there were rumours going around that your teletubby toys will come alive at night or something (it even went into the newspapers if i'm not wrong), that's why i got scared. pahaha. and besides, it's supposed to be a kids show, and kids shows are supposed to be educational. but greeting people by saying "eh-oh"? hurr. even my niece when she was one year old ditched her teletubbies for sesame street. but, no, i don't like sesame street. i loved barney. :D

okay, enough said. i'm real tired after doing housework. hah. i made a pact with my mother that i'll do housework if she stops asking me to (lol i spelled that as mr yo) follow her go shopping in geylang. lol. heyy, i'd rather get myself all dirty than go there, okay? ah, now i have new bedsheets, curtains, and LAMPU KELAP-KELIP!. :D my father got too into the mood of hari raya this year, he even made those annoying colourful blinking lights. yes he did, bought each bulb, connected the wires and shit. hurr. now i feel as though i live in m'sia or something. (not that living there is a bad thing or anything.) but hell, all in the name of hari raya. :D
and HAPPY DEEPAVALI as well. ((((: ahh, like what khai said in her blog, i love singapore for its multi-racialism. my indian neighbour gave my family a whole bunch of kuihs earlier today.(: i love them really, those kuihs. ahh, i'm in a festive mood again.(:

oo, and i'm skipping school on monday! no sculpture walk for me, woohoo. i'm supposed to help clean up the house and stuff. ee, i'm excited! really. eve of raya. ahh. i'm especially excited this year for some reason. idk, maybe cos i don't get to visit my relatives as much as before? oh, the fun times.(:

so now i have some more housework left. wash the dishes, clear the table, change the cushion sheets things and done! :D

2006-10-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

okay. i am officially convinced that youtube has everything. everything i tell you. because i stumbled upon this video that i used to love so bloody much, back when i was like, er, 4 or 5? HAH.

omg! how 90s is that?! and the video is real cheesy. lol! i can't believe i still remember most of the words. it's been almost ten years. ahaha. ahh, nostalgia.(: damn the fact that the song isn't that popular. i can't find it anywhere.): oh wells.
at least i got one of his songs and put it up on my music player; one of his more popular songs which i love really.
ahh, i feel so old.

and does anybody know this song?

it was my favourite song for ages! ahh. loveeee it. :D

OH, AND!

SPICE GIRLS! you have nnnnnoooooo idea how much i loved them last time. :D hahh. favourite song ever.^^ paha!

ahh, all these videos make me want to live in the nineties all over again. wasn't it better? without all the talk about terrorism and global warming and aids and stuff. even so, we wouldn't know what was going on because we were to young to understand anything.
(:

2006-10-14T12:40:00.000+08:00

you know, blogger is being dumb. i can't even view my own blog. all i can see when i go to my page is the graphic, the words "info" and "links" at top left, and some code sprawled all over the place. wtf. i hate it. so i'm going to submit this post later without even knowing if it's really submitted. ergh. screw it.
i'll just make myself a new skin, yea? pft. i'm still pissed of at blogger, mind you. i should really just move over to lj. hurr.

so, yesterday i went to my aunt's house. and had a haircut on the way there.(: it was a last minute thing really; we were wasting our lives outside the hairdresser's, and then i decided to go in. woohoo. but, well, let's just say that it went like my previous haircut. just thinner, and not much diff. grr. BUT! i really love the snip-snip-snipping sound the scissors makes. :D lol. but, grr again. because i wasted my 10 bucks. MINE! ):

oh wells. can i rant about something now?
i hate msn. hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate!!!! because everytime a person comes online, or if i get a new email, or someone sends me a message, my computer will become so slow, it takes like ten years to go from one page to the next. and this is already after i've turned off my alerts. damn, msn. damn!
everyone should just get themselves myspaceIM, because it's funner. very classic, without those stupid nudges, and winks, and extra emoticons which also load extra slowly. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
end of.

okay, msn aside, i really love youtube.(: because i've been watching panic videos, that's why. i love ryan ross! ♥♥♥ and he can really sing. really really.

i love how he sings "FASTer FASTerrrrrrrr". ohmagawsh *in a bimbotic way*. he is, like, the hottest thing, like, ever!

and this is THE best. no, there's a whole lot of good ones. so i'd say this is one of THE best videos.

watch 5:23 to 5:25. s-e-x sex. omg! yes, ryro is the sex, i tell you. THE sex.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2006-10-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

OMFG!

omgomgomgeeeeeee, ryan singing! what more can you need?! *spazzes while at the same time pissing susu off for using her word* although it's distracting with brent still being in the band, but hell. ryan is just....hothothot!

ryan. guitar. singing. rosevest. eye makeup. amazing hair. -faints. 3:28-3:32 is love. ♥ if spazzing was an illness, i'd be lying dead on the floor right now. srsly. gosh, ryro is amazing. amazing as hell. heaven. whatever.

pft. i have to go study.): ergh, i hate exams so much, you have no idea.
or maybe i'll go sleep now, and study at night. but there's antm, so. urm. ah, who cares. science is shit. but ryan is the shit.
yeaaaaaaa.

2006-10-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

gosh, i used to update like everyday in september. hahh. i'll try to do the same in october. woohoo. :D
oh, and before anything, THIS

video made me LOL. ahahaha. i love how brendon get knocked on the head. hilarious. and can you imagine how bloody skinny ryan is? the guy at the end carried him like he was carrying a feather or something. hah.

sooo, anyways. i calculated yesterday (yes, when i was supposed to be mugging for geography and science) that if i had $6765, i can have everything i want. grrrr. but, well, i'll be happy with $2000, although i don't have any idea where to get that from. ah, maybe i'll just go on starving the whole year next year. no lunches, no recesses, no summer joy.): and i think i seriously need to get a job. anybody wants to go out job-hunting with me?! we have the whole of nov and dec. :D. but is it possible though, for fourteen year olds?
and i want to sell my stuff on ebay! does anybody want good charlotte's first album? i'll sell it for 20. or 15. i don't know. and also, ahem, gareth gates' albums. like, seriously, ALL of them. yes, i know, i'm embarrassed that i actually own them. hey, i was young and naive then, not knowing what to do with the extra cash i got. hurrr.
oh, and please please click and join! i'd love you forever, i swear.
ergh. ANYBODY ELSE GOT A BETTER WAY TO EARN MONEY?! i hate being broke. and sometimes i wish i was a spoilt brat so that mommy and daddy dearest would buy me everything i ask for.):

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CAN I BE A SPOILT BRAT PLEASEEEEEEEEEE?!

2006-10-01T14:47:00.000+08:00

gr. can i just say that i'm very very pissed off? and why? because of this damn hiccup i've been having since i woke up. grrrrrr. i hate hiccups. hatehatehate!
pft. i tried holding my breath, but it didn't work. and i can't possibly drink a glass of water since i'm fasting and all. erghhh. hatehatehatehate hiccups.

okay. ahem. WATCH!

i've never actually been a fan of mcr, but mikey way looks hot in that video. very very hot indeed. he looks better without his glasses.(: hahh.

lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off! phew, that took awhile just to type the title of the song. hahh. the video still confuses me though. what does fishtank on heads have anything to do with testosterone boys and harlequin girls? you tell me.

okay. this hiccup is really REALLY trying to tick me off here. and it's doing a very good job at doing so. ergh! and i've been hiccuping for over three hours here, mind you. how can anyone not get irritated? pft.

hate hiccups. HHAATTEE hiccups.

2006-09-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

SHORT IMPROMPTU POST ALERT!

i conclude that that i repeat a lot of words. LOL!
like, oh wells, and ahh, and sheesh, and gr, and gahh, and blahh, and woohoo, and hahh (or HAH), and LOL!, and pft, and ergh, and bleh.
and i say a lot of "i'm off to bed" before ending entries.
stuff like that.
LOL.
oh wells. :D

oh, and i say a lot of "you know what?!" before saying something. HAH.
i'm amazing.

2006-09-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

[blahhh]
english paper is tomorrow! like, STREAMING, FINALS, eoy, fye, whatever else they call it. and i'm down here, 11.20pm, not bothering to do anything but stone. but, honestly, i don't have the inspiration or whatever to get my butt off this chair and start revising. call me lazy and all; yadayada. yes, yes. ann and susu gve me an earful today. but, srsly. after last year, i just don't feel like bothering anymore. people are studying, i look at them and shrug. they nag at me to start mugging, i open up a storybook to read. they shove a textbook into my face, i switch on the computer to do whatever it is i do online. nothing is motivating me. i don't see the point in studying anymore. i don't actually feel the failure when i fail something. i don't see the point of bucking up and revising and stuff.
somebody please tell me what's wrong with me?! no, don't go on telling me it's streaming, it's an improtant year, all this depends on what subjects you're taking next year, ETCetc. i've had enough of those talks. i simply can't bother. ergh. explain to me exactly why i have to go to school, take exams and shit? gahhh.
oh, and no, i don't want to get counselled, tyvm.
[/blahhh]

ah, okay. i'm sleepy. so i'm off to bed, yea?(:

2006-09-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

ahhhh. veryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery CUTE!!! but my head is spinning though, from looking at that picture for too long. but i just love the way he smiles at the end.(: he is THE most adorable thing on earth, apart from ryro of course.
ahh. can some boy please come into my life and change that please? i don't like falling for guys who are, well, out of my reach? LOL. that sounds weird, but oh well.

and since i'm posting up pictures, i might as well put up some more.

don't you think that this is just so sweet? i think it's one of the most romantic pictures i've seen in awhile. (picture in a link since society these days still doesn't accept the boy-love-boy relationships i guess. especially here in asia. hurr.) but, ahh, jack and james are amazing together. and jack is very hot! but yes, he's gay. so oh well.
and i got very pissed off at this and this and this. but, oh wells. they've broken up anyways. and the girl is quite pretty(:(she's a model, for gods sakes.) and, yah. RYAN IS HOT!

okay, fine. enough ramblings. HADY IS THEEEEEE SINGAPORE IDOL. woohoo. (i bet this will make susu pissed again, but well. :D) hady bloody rocks, can?(: and i voted ten times! woohoo.
well, fine, not using my own money, but heyyy. he won, and that's that. yayness. okay, actually i have nothing to write about, because i'm sleepy, tired, exhausted, etc. but there's no school tomorrow, so all the more reason to stay up late.(((:
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well, maybe i can't stay up. my eyelids are feeling too heavy. so i'm off to bed.(:
ta.

2006-09-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

ahh, ryan ross makes my heart flutter.(: ♥

woohoo. higher malay is finally done. YAY! but, darn. there's still a long way to go. 7 to 8 more papers? blahh. i dont want to take malay. i don't see the point. can we please please don't take malay.?!):

oh wells. today is a well boring day. i'm feeling real sleepy, but the computer's on so it's keeping me awake. ahh, the fasting month starts tomorrow! it still hasn't sunk in yet though. oh gosh.

arh, fine. since i have nothing to do, i'll go watch videos on youtube. and also still try to figure out the meanings of panic's songs.
and i feel smart for finally figuring out what "boys will be boys, hiding in estrogen and wearing aubergine dreams" means. they're transvestite wearing that colour of make-up (aubergine). hahh. how smart am i?
well, okay, so maybe i found that out on songfacts.com.
LOL.
x

2006-09-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO. I LOVE MUFFINS.
AND I LOVE MY DARLING LOVELY JFF & CC MUFFINS!((((((:

awwww, three little muffins.(:

gonggonggonggonggonggonggong! lmao!(:
oh, and my darling lovely jff muffin. talk to __ tomorrow!(:

i'm high.:D

2006-09-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

omgeeee. i think ryan looks absolutely hothothot in that picture.(: ahh, i love him lah.(:
gr. i really should stop obsessing about ang mohs and start liking someone real, but i'm picky. hah. arh, who cares? i love david white and ryan ross, and i'm a sucker for skinny white boys with amazing amazing hair.(:

ohh, and lifen made up life stories for us asses.(: LOL! and lifen was biased because she got the best story; i died and became a ghost, susu became a fairy god pig who was too heavy to fly so she got stuck in the mud,...and yah. all that lah. while she got to have a romantic night with __ and hung out underneath the stars and all. (although one of them hit the earth, so i can't see how that's romntic, but still.!) pft. lifen, make a new story for me and don't make me die and don't make me a man and don't let me be a ghost!
tyvm.

ahh.! i'm so dead tomorrow.): geog and eng tests, AND sci presentation on abortion and premarital sex. hmph. but oh wells. i'll probably go to the library after all that and make friends with pd and jason foo? haha.(:

aiiiiiiiiight. i'm off so, toodles.

2006-09-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

well, today was okay-ish. school was being such a drag, as usual. and ann, susu and me ended up trying to complete our bridge during english and recess. although we ended up very glued instead. grr. hahh. and, of course, we didn't finish the bridge in the end. i hate dnt!

but the trip to hml today was fun, i guess? me and lifen started talking like bimbos on the train, and we didn't even realise how loud we were. LOL! but it was lame. (lame, geddit? HA-ha!) okay, fine. i crack the worst jokes everrr.

oo, and i've been browsing the net for fluttery books. (because i'm seriously bored, and i have nothing to do tbh.) oh! and do you know that rachel hawthorne is actually not rachel hawthorne? she made up that name, and her real name is lorraine heath. how awesome am i to find that out, huh? :D oh wells.

okay, i feel like reading my island girls and boys book.(:
and! i really want a brother like kevin(if we kiss by rachel vail)! and somebody like sam from love on the lifts. (i prefer him to joe, for some reason.) and, yah. all that lah.
su&lifen&khai has influenced me too much on reading books like those; i'm ditching the ghost/romance novels. hah! ~~(although a certain slant of light is still really amazing.)~~

2006-09-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

i really wish i could post up pictures here, but my camera's spoilt.): damnnnnnn. i spent all my savings on that, and it's gone to waste. and i probably need more money to get it repaired. ergh.
i shouldn't have bought it from somewhere cheap. (damnnn giant.)

i spent my afternoon today watching the vma's. :D. p!atd's performance was the best, for obvious reasons. ahh, ryan ross is hothothot! all the better that they won the video of the year award.(: and i love sexyback.! ahhh. i've only realised recently that i really like all of justin timeberlake's singles. strange really, because i've always hated nsync, however you spell it. i was more of a bsb fan tbh. ah yes, the spice girls and bsb were the first songs i ever listened to. paha. amazing.

you know, i think i won't ever go on msn again. i went online yesterday, just for the fun of it (and also cos lifen got a lot to tell me about __ maybe.) and my computer got so freaking screwed up, i can't go to a site without having to wait at least a minute for the page to load. might be coincidence, who knows, since lifen's internet was being slow as well, but i wont take my chances. grr. the internet can be such a pain sometimes.

i'm bringing sexy back. YEAH!

2006-09-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

NEW LAYOUT!
i spent ages working on this layout, from editting of codes to finding pictures and all. but i'm really proud of this layout, if i say so myself. i've finally vntured into the image-mapping world. well, i don't think it's actually called that, but image-map is somewhat the same, i guess.

i added in a little more stuff into my info section here and there and i cancelled away links to blogs which are not working or of whom the person i don't actually like.(: so, yepp, i love my layout. except for the fact that it's a little bit too quiet i think; i have to figure out some place to slot in my music player.

well, yea. i guess that's that. now all i have to do is find the perfect colour for my dear ol' tagboard. i hate it that they dont use hex codes to choose the colours. gr.
ta.

2006-09-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna change my layout soon! woohoo. be happy for me, people. because i know how much you hate my current green one. pahahaha. the new one is real plain, i have to find pictures or something to put in it. fine fine, no david ones, i promise. awwh, i love david. (:

and expect more pictures and videos here maybe, because i'm making this my photoblog. i'm much more attached to my lj, hahh. i love lj really, how you can actually post up friends-only entries. it makes it more private; blogger is just way too public. i don't like it.

well, today was quite okay-ish really. dnt was surprisingly fun, and also after school. :D lifen was busy staring at __, and then ann kept denying that she kept staring at __. oh yes oh yes. the power of hormones.

ah, sg idol is starting. tata.(:

ps. twohill is outtttttt. yafoooooooooh! (whatever that's supposed to mean.)

2006-09-09T05:18:00.000+08:00

i feel like updating, although i don't know what about.
it's 5.15am now, but i really can't sleep. ahhh. "spring cleaning" was really tiring. ergh. my room is too clean now; i don't like it. because the pink walls are showing. arh.
it needs a paint job.

so i'm now watching britain's next top model on youtube. ahhah. antm is way better though, but bntm has more drama. (and more swearing.) ahhah. i like it. they should just have a better studio thing and better quality photos, or photoshopping, then it would be nice.(:
lucy is amazing, she really looks like a model. but sam is just ugly tbh. what's with the huge gap in her teeth, i have no clue. lol. and i love abigail's accent.((:
oh, and the judges are pathetic. end of.

ahh, all my soft toys/cushions/whatever else that practically lives on my bed are in the wash now. i'm going to have a hard time sleeping later.)):

2006-09-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

ahhhh.
i've finally found more pictures of suri. i love her too much already. :D

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
i love her hair! and her eyes are amazing! ahhhh. she's so cute lah can?
♥♥♥♥♥♥

2006-09-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

omgggggggggg.
has anyone seen the pictures of suri cruise? you know, tom cruise/penelope cruz's daughter?
ahhhhhhhhhhhh. she's sooooo cute! seriously.!
well, yes, babies in general are cute, but really. suri cruise is really REALLY cute! i don't know why i'm obsessing about her, when everybody else is in love with her father, but yah.

she's too cute, i tell you, TOO cute.

2006-09-07T06:25:00.000+08:00

you know what i think? i think ryan ross is absolutely gorgeous. ♥
he really is.

i really love the finale.! when ryan goes out there with his guitar.....ooo yes yes.

ryanrossisamazing.

2006-09-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

OMG!
has anyone heard about the news?
STEVE IRWIN IS DEAD.! like, THE crocodile hunter, is, like, gone.
and i thought he was going to fight crocodiles even if he's in his wheelchair with his great granddaughter or something.
oh well. not like i was a fan of his or anything, but still. !!

click!

sheesh.

2006-09-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

i feel so sick today. ergh.
my right eye has been tearing non-stop since i woke up. my throat feels so dry and it hurts! my whole body is aching. and i haven't had a good sleep in awhile.): blahh. and i feel really hot as well. i don't know if it's the weather or what, but yah. it's really hot. and i really don't like it.gahhhhh.

so. i'm atually thinking of switching completely to lj, since it's easier to handle and all. but, let's see how that goes.
i went to comex yesterday with my family.(: you know, the HUGE electronics exhibition at expo. it was nice really. but we went there to just look around, and we didn't buy anything. i really wanted the mp3 players though...really tempting, they are.! but in the end, all we took home from there is a whole load of flyers and this new foldable/water-proof/rubber keyboard which i am currently using now and am having a very hard time typing.
i keep having typo errors! and it's hard to use the backspace! grrr. but i'll get used to it, i think. i doubt we'll be changing back to the old normal keyboard since my BROTHER is so keen on using this.
oh well. at least i can now smash my keyboard without worrying if i spoilt it or anything.:D

so, yah, comex was nice, but really crowded. and i really pitied this one boy who lost his little brother, and he was crying and asked my mother if she had seen him.): thank god I didn't get lost. it would be really embarrassing really, going to such a huge ELECTRONIC fair and not having a handphone. :|
hahh.

so after that we went to changi airport and ate at popeye's. :D. my whole family are huge fans of popeye's really. and it DOES help that my cousin is working there and she can give us extra food. :D:D.

so yes. then we went home. and tried out this new keyboard. then slept.

and now, i'm trying to change my style of blogging. i got tired trying to read my previous posts where a new line starts after every sentence. (or word.)
ahhhh. i really hate the 'shift' button as well. pffffft. i shall start convincing my brother that the old keyboard is better. i will. hmph.

soo welll. i haven't been on msn much. and it feels quite good really. although i feel bad for not talking to my friends,but well, there's always my tagboard and myspace and lj and all.(:
and i'm getting very pissed off at my camera. the pictures just refuse to be uploaded onto the computer. i hate it. and i'm assuming the sivah-stepping-on-my-camera incident has something to do with this. ARGH. i really hate this.

okay. i'm off now to go myspace-ing and lj-ing and stuff.
:D

2006-08-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

GAHHH.
I hate it.
I hate it.
No, really.
I don't like living in this messed up world anymore.
Seriously.
And I REALLY think hot HOT guys should stop being gay.
Wouldn't it just make thinks easier?
Girl like boy. Boy like girl.
Not girl like boy.
But boy like boy.
And girl like girl and boy.
And boy wants to be girl and like boy.
SHEESH.

Well, yes, I don't have THAT much of a problem with gays and lesbians and bisexuals and all.
Because, really, they can't help being the way they are anyway.
BUT.
Why must all the very very hot and cute guys that I like turn out to be gay, HUH.!?
Ahh. Very well then.
I will continue on living in my very own self-denying world.
And tell myself that David is NOT gay.
He's not.
David is not gay.
David is not gay.
David is not gay.
And neither is my, -ahem, very very CUTE but gay friend-of-a-cousin.
AND!
Well, let's see how many cute/hot gays I can find on my Myspace friends list.
David. Fred. Benji. And Jack, although I didn't add him. But well...
And STRAIGHT guys who are unavailable and/or popular.
(In other words impossible to get.)
Steve Rushton. That Philip person. James. David. Chris Leonard. Lewis. Matt Willis.?
And very available guys but very ugly/not-so-good-looking/unfriendly.
The rest of the guys on my friends list.
):

This world needs more hot/cute/straight/friendly guys for us girls out here, y'know.
Geez.
Fine.
Maybe I'll turn myself into a weirdo bi.
Or maybe even a lesbian, but that won't work out I think.
But yah.
Just turn all the gays into straight and normal guys can?
And I'll be the happiest girl in the world.
:D
I still wish David isn't gay.))):

I don't like this world.
Well, I don't actually hate it.
But, hey, there's sure a hell lot of improvements that can be done.
Pffft.

..
BATAM TRIP WAS BLOODY FUN!
It was it was it was.
And I've never known parasailing to be so fun.
Woohoo.
AND.
I've added three new tees and a jacket into my wardrobe.
YAY.
And, yah, also that watch which everyone seems to be wearing and I, me, Siti Nurul Afrah Binte Mohd Fitras, being as blur like I usually am, don't know about it and very happily bought it for 55000 rupiah, which is like a little over $9 when I can have it for like only $5 here in Singapore.
Geez.
And I thought the things in Batam were supposed to be cheaper.
It was origiannly 85000 rupiah until my mother bargained it to 55000 rupiah.
But, nvm nvm.
I'll appreciate what I have because I hate my old watch much more. :D

Oh, and no, I didn't post the pictures up on LJ.
Because either my computer or camera is giving me problems and it won't let me upload them pictures.
)))):
I'm depressed.
Really.
But nevermind.
I can still admire the pictures from the camera itself.
-Ahem.
~~Once again, he should stop being gay.~~
:D

Umm. Okay.
So today was tiring.
And I was pretty much half asleep throughout the schoolday.
And there won't be any flexi period tomorrow.
):
But we'll be let off like 45 minutes earlier anyway.
:|
Like as if THAT'S any difference.
But nvmnvm.
Thursday will be fun.
Since I'm most probably going back to SPS and, once again, going back to that place that just reminds me of my childhood.
:D
OH.
And I really wish that Mr TTH will come back to YTSS on teachers' day.
But, oh well.
We have Mr TYK now.
:|

Oookay.
My mother just ajak-ed me to watch Snakes On A Plane.
And I don't know whether it's a good movie or not, but hell.
I love the soundtrack.
(Listen to it on my now-finally-working music player thing.)

Oh, I'm ready for it.
COME ON BRING IT!
:D:D

2006-08-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
I'm so bloody depressed now, you have no bloody idea.
And it's not because of this bloody headache.
Or this bloody irritating rash.
Or the fact that I got up on the wrong side of bed and my neck/spine hurts so bad.
I'm just so bloody depressed.
Because I just found out something I had hoped was not true.
But it is.
Gahhhhh.
Screw it.
I'm bloody depressed.
And I hate this world.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

I stil love David though.
<333333333

2006-08-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU.
GRRRRRRRR.
I hate you.
You piss me off, okay?
I'm bloody ignoring you.
DON'T YOU NOTICE IT ALREADY.!?
I'm like shoving a big fat "GO AWAY!" sign onto your face, and you are jolly well pretending it doesn't exist.
I don't want to talk to you anymore.
I don't want to have you hanging around me.
I don't want to anywhere near you.
But you just don't GET it, do you?
GOSH.
You are so fucking shallow.
I'm ignoring you for a thousand-and-one reasons.
But the main thing is that I don't want to be your friend anymore, OKAY.!?
Just get the hint already.
You're just a self-pitying big fat egoistic gay who just don't know when to quit.
You think you're so GREAT. The world revolves around you and you only.
Everyone should care about you ONLY.
But please.
GET A LIFE ALREADY.
And get away from me.
I don't want to be around you.
AND I don't want you to be so fucking annoying and be around me all the time.
And just wishing that I would just MIRACULOUSLY want to be your friend again.
I won't.
Fuck no.
You're not worth spending my time with.
STOP sticking your nose into everything I do.
STOP acting cute. YOU'RE A FUCKNG GUY FOR GOODNESS SAKE'S. Although, seriously, you're not worth being either gender.
STOP walk that fucking walk of yours. No, you're the the GOD of the universe, so STOP sticking your nose so fucking high up in the air like you own the world. BECAUSE YOU DON'T.
JUST STOP BEING EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE AND EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.
But what would make it much more easier is for you to not exist in this already screwed up world.
Because you're just making things worse.

BLAHH.
I tell you.
SERIOUSLY.
I'm pissed off at too many people.
They should really just dig their own graves and bury themselves in them right now.
I would be the happiest person in the universe.
HURH.

So, yes, thank god Singapore Idol was better today.
It's always the Asian thing that keeps the spirit going on there I guess.
Last year Taufik sang Belaiain Jiwa.
And everybody was starting to sing it again.
And Sly sang that An Jing (sp?) song, and, WOWW, everybody who didn't know chinese and/or hate the singer (Jay Chou, isn't it?) started learning the lyrics and singing to the song.
Okay lah.
I only remember Susu doing those.
So, yah.
Today's SI was okay-ish.
Hady was amazing though.
<33333333
And Joakim should go home.
He can't sing lah.
STOP VOTING FOR HIM ALREADY TEENIES.
Because I can already imagine all the makciks now learning how to sms just to vote for Hady.(:
Hady rocks.
And, umm, yah.
The Siti Nurul Maideen comment was a little weird.
HAH.
But I STILL hate the first parts of my name, tyvm.
*ahem.
OH!
And the Singapore Cowboy in the audience behind Dick Lee was absolutely distracting.
He was as crazy as ever.
And I guess a HUGE fan of Nurul..?
He's one weird weirdo.
No wonder he's related to Susu.
HAH. :D

AND!
I've had one of the weirdest dreams yesterday.
I won't exactly say it.
But it involves Li Fen, a guy with very nice haircut (and he's hot, according to her), his weird friend, and, umm, yah. A whole lot of flirting.
Must be the weird collection of photos in my camera yesterday.
Oh, and Li Fen.
I still think you are obsessed about him.(:

So, yah.
In case you haven't realise, if you are as blur as me, I've changed my skin yet again.
(Altogether now...WWWOOOOWWWW!!!)
Green.? CHECK.
DAVID.? CHECK.
Bloody ugly tagboard colour which doesn't even suit the skin.? CHECK.
Music playlist that doesn't work.? CHECK.
Conclusion.: One of the worse skins I've ever had.
(Despite of course David being as cute as always.)
But oh well.

*Suddenly reminded of Will Young for no apparent reason and starts singing...*
I THINK I BETTER LEAVE RIGHT NOW...
da da daa dada da da.
I don't know the lyrics lah, can?
Oh well.

I love him.
♥

2006-08-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

Well, hello there.
Just a quick update here I guess.(:
I've updated my LJ with a bunch of animations and pictures, so yes.
Check them out.(:
And I uploaded a few dumb videos onto my YouTube account, so check them out as well.
I'll probably make myself a new skin tomorrow.?
Or the day after.
Or maybe after I'm done with Shubaa's.?
I don't know.
We'll see.
And, well, yes, that's it.(:

I'm totally in love with his eyes.
And his smile.
<333333333333333333 ♥!

2006-08-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

Ergh.
Sometimes, people can get too much.
Just too much.
For fuck's sake, it's only a pathetic wall display.
Stop being so effing worked up already.
Stop being so effing competitive.
For one, 2/3 did not copy you or anything.
So stop point fingers anymore.
Well, yes, you painted it first.
Yadayada.
But do you ACTUALLY think people would want to copy you.
Like, seriously.
Wake up from your over-obsessed world of yours.
They did it cos their teacher asked them too.
So stop blaming them.
And stop adding more dumbass things onto the wall already.
It's good enough, okay.
IT'S ENOUGH!
Stop being so competitive.
Gosh, you people.
Stop asking people to do things.
Stop blaming them if they don't want to do it.
It's not their effing fault.
You're overdoing everything.
I can't believe I got stuck in this over-obsessed self-denying craphole.
Get a grip of yourself.
YOU FUCKING SUCK.
Argh.

Damnn.
I think I'm writing too many of these tiny-textslashstiked-out posts, but really,
People should just stop being such pathetic bunsholes.
I think I'm hating too many people.
It's not very healthy, is it?
Okay.
I think I should start some normal blogging for once.
All those What-I-Did-Today, What-I'm-Going-To-Do-Tomorrow, What-I-Should've-Done stuff.
Oh, and not to forget the David-ism thing going on here in my very blog.
I love him.(:
I'm a stalker.
(And I think I know too much about him already, but, who cares?)

So, umm, yah.
Today, today.
Today is such a crap day in school, I swear.
And I was pretty much in a bad and sleepy mood.
Everything was pretty much shit.
Except of course for after school.
When me and Khai went to the school library with Li Fen and Shubaa, like every other Fridays.
Dammit lah.
I want to join library can.!?
Screw the world.
Ahem.
Anyways.
Khairiah had some serious issues today, I swear.
She started talking to that yellow-thing you can find in the library.
(I've got the picture to prove it.)
She rapped to Spice Girls.
(And I have the video to prove that.)
She was talking about a painting on the wall and what it was supposed to mean.
(I have pictures.)
She started playing with this purple feather.
(Pictures again.)
She grabbed Shubaa by the head to make her look into the camera.
(I have an animation of it. Shubaa looked like she was in so much pain.)
She collected feathers from the library shelf and stuck it into her hair.
(Video AND picture.)
She took this shiny, PINK elastic rubber band thingy and tied her hair with it.
(Pictures, peepol, pictures.)
She started singing songs that Nurul sang on SG Idol, and kept complementing herself.
(No video or pictures whatsoever, sadly. But she keeps saying she sounds just like Nurul. GEEZ.)
(Ahem. WISHing I, WISHing I. Somewhereeeee over the rainBBOUU. LMAO.)
AND she started talking like Mr Bean.
(No video or pictures again.)
You pretty much get the idea, huh?
Oh wells.
I don't know whether I'll be posting the pictures up on my LJ.
I've been abandoning it.
BUT.
I'm not deleting it.
(For a very David-ified reason, so, yah.)
OH oh.
And I got a video of Susu falling while TRYING to attempt balancing on that yellow-thing Khairiah was talking to.
I have very VERY weird friends.

Okay, so, urr, now I think I'll stop here.
I'm thinking of changing my skin again.(:
Soooooo. Yah
Toodles everyone.
(And I will try to NOT say bye anymore. For a very jo-ish reason. :D)

David is amazing. ♥
And Sara Chew is the friendliest person I've met on MySpace.(:
<3333333333333333333333333

2006-08-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

YOU SO ~~FUCKING~~ PISS ME OFF.

Why don't you ever realise that?
For once, I BEG of you, PLEASE, just give me some space.

2006-08-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'm so effing pissed off right now okay.
Ergh.
Screw the world.

I saved up for like more than a year for that camera.
Every single cent was paid by me.
Ah.
Yes yes.
After days of skipping lunches and recesses, and having really bad gastric attacks because of it just to save up,
you just HAD to step on my camera.
And damage it.
You just HAD to, didn't you.
And you can act like nothing actually happened.
Well, screw that.
Don't make excuses that he pushed you and you accidentally stepped on my bag or whatever else shit you're going to tell me.
The point is that my camera is spoilt.
And, no, I can't do anything about it.
It can't be fixed.
It can't be repaired.

And, wow, I thought I had wonderful parents as well.
But, noo.
They actually BLAMED me for it.
They did not care what actually happened.
What they about is that it's spoilt and it's my fault.
When it's yours.
When it's so fucking yours.
They scolded me, mind you.
They didn't bother at all.
When I actually paid for it with every single cent of my savings.

Screw it.
Just screw it.
I'm too pissed off.
I hate it.
Why did you just have to step on my camera in the first place?
The world is too screwed up, it's ridiculous.

2006-08-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

I seriously think people should start thinking about other people.
No, really.
I've been blog-hopping, and I can't believe how many people are so full of themselves.
Who only think about their own selfish self.
Those self-centred egoistic little bastards.
(I feel like inserting a very strong swear word here, but since this is going to be public and all, I guess the only word I can use is...
FFFFFFFFFFF.....FISH!!!!!!!)
(Geez. I can be so effing lame sometimes.)

-shakes head shamefully.
Okay. I will stop ranting already and carry on with the usual blogging.
(:
Well, screw the Science test today.
I doubt 3/4 of the Sec 2s are actually able to complete the paper.
Seriously.
And the lecture after the paper is just...okay, let's just not go there, shall we?
And HML and ML papers are on the same time tomorrow.
So, yea.
ASS Krew is deciding on going to HML.
(Because Summer Joy is the only thing that inspires us.)
Oh.
And PS.
I'm an official asshole.
And I love it.
:D

Oh, and have I ever said I hate ____.?
Because I really hate ____.
:D
He/She/They/I/It suck(s).
Let's just keep it a mystery now, shall we?

So. Umm. Yah.
I have nothing to say.
Except for the fact that I want to effing cut my effing hair again.
EFFFFFFF!
My hair no difference now, can.!?
):
Oh wells.
I'm done.

EDIT:
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
NONONONONONONONONONONONNOONONONO!!!
David had officially made his photobucket account private.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have no ~~fucking~~ idea how ~~fucking~~ depressed I am right now.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
I WANT DAVID CAN.!?

I've never realised I was this obsessed, but yah.
I NEED MORE DAVID.!

2006-08-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

♥!
:D

Ahh.
Anyways.
I've changed my skin into a VERY yellow, VERY David-ified skin.
And, urm. I'm suppose to be cleaning my room now, and my mother has been nagging at me for the part hour or two.
Sooo. BYE!
(:

2006-08-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

LAKEHOUSE WAS AMAZING!

2006-08-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

...
STOP THINKING THAT YOU'RE SO EFFING GOOD WHEN YOU'RE SO EFFING NOT.
YOU'RE NOT EVEN CLOSE.
In fact, saying that you're horrendous is the utmost understatement of the millenium.
Stop seeking pity from everyone.
Stop thinking that you should be at the centre of attention everytime.
Because everyone doesn't care.
EVERYONE ACTUALLY HATES YOU.
Don't you even realise that.!?
Gosh.
JUST STOP BEING EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE.
BECAUSE EVERYONE HATES YOU FOR IT.
Argh.

-
Stop seeking attention.
Stop stop STOP thinking you're cute.
JUST STOP IT WILL YOU.?!
And you go on with your new friends like I'm not there.
And when you have no one else, you stick on to me like I'm only a replacement.

-
And sttttttoppppp being so effing biased will you?
You go on criticising other people like they're a nuisance to even exist.
But when your friends do the same thing, you don't care.
You can actually laugh about it. But do you actually care when it's somebody else?
Nooo. You think you're such a superior in everything.
You pretend you hate being in the limelight when it's obvious you're desperate for it.

-
ARGHHHHH.
You people just piss me off okay?
Stop it.
STOP IT.
STOP BEING WHO YOU ARE AND EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.
Gahhhhhh.
I hate being pissed off, but these people just ticks me off.
FGT@$T#%Y$B%Y$%Y#$YY:RTH

I need a break.

2006-08-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

I really love today.((:
Because it was daaaaaaaaaaamn fun.
I've never realised how fun gossiping can be.
HAH.
And also reading books in the school library.
:D
I seriously want to join library lah.
Let's just hope Mr Soh approves.(:

So. Well.
School was normal today.
Like any other day except for the fact that everyone was rushing and doing tons of book reviews.
And I don't really get why, but, oh well.
And after school me and Khai and Ruzzie went to meet Mrs Lim.
Waddehel.

And then we went to the library.
And saw a fight happening.
And gossiped like hell.
:D
And then we went to KFC.
And made fun of Shubaa's white shoes..!?
HAHA.
Shubababa...what?
LMAO.

Okay. So that was today.
I'm done with Li Fen's skin that she's been asking me to do since ages ago.
And, speaking of which, I'm changing my skin soon I think.
Since Relient K seems to be everywhere in my class.
And everybody keeps listening to BME during recess.
I don't like it when something gets too popular.
I'll just have to wait till the trend fades out then maybe I'll be Relient K-crazy again.(:
For now, I'll make a David skin.(:
I've already done the blend.
Making the skin is another thing.
But I'll work on Shubaa's skin first.
I think.
Ahh. Let's just see.
But I still love David lah.
-sighs.

It IS actually quite ridiculous to be in love with somebody whom you've never met before.
Who lives a gazillion miles away from you.
And that person doesn't even know you exist.
But, seriously, I really really really lovvveeee David, can?

Okay, I know I'm actually really irritating people here for talking about David too much.
And I will stop. For now.

Oo yes.
My current song obsession is Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin.
It's lovelyyyy.
And The Mixed Tape by them is also nice.

I like Jack's Mannequin.(:

So. Anyways.
I'm trying to make this post really long.
:D
TERM TESTS ARE COMING PEOPLE.
And I'm not freaked out by it, and neither am I doing anything about it.
Same old same old.

You know.
I can't wait for 2006 to be over.
I've never had a year as bad as this, I don't think.
With all the conflicts and problems etc.
I want it all to be overrrrrrrrr.
BUT.
I have no idea what subjects to choose next year.!!
))):
I want to take art, but at O Level, I doubt that I can actually make it.
And, plus, only about 15 people are chosen.
So chances are very loww.
And if I don't get into art, which is highly likely, I have no idea what subjects to choose.
Bio is a no-no.
I can't stand seeing frogs and dead animals being cut up.
And besides, I'm hopeless at Science.
And I don't like Geog.
And, yah.
Etc etc lah.
I seriously should ask my parents.

Ah well.
I think that's enough rants for today.
I will start on my David skin now.(: